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lone and love

2012-01-30T03:18:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I may write as if I am always blessed with happiness,sometimes i compiled all my sorrow in here,expressing much as I can eventhough little pay interest. Sometimes i smiled all the way laughed till I can hardly feel my lungs but little know what did I tried to hide. I worked day and night trying to fulfill my needs for my own satisfaction. For those who never see how my sweat are piled up working everyday might came up with simple conclusion that i used up daddy's money to get my desire fulfilled. I end up my relationship with someone I've been with for two years plus and jumped into another relationship so sudden. People never know how much heartbroken I was the time he left me and how i tried to mend everything by falling in love again. I might be complicated,sometimes i love to play around the bush hoping that someone would try to dive inside me and came up to surface finding what I wanted from that person. I think a lot when I am alone. That's why I always hated my insomniac part of me,there left me with no options than to stay alone early morning and think,reflects back what happenned. I love to talk,to find a friend whom I could tell what had I gone through the whole day ,the joke of the day that keep me laughing so that we could laugh together and how the roar of laughter always keep the day significant. I live myself with a very high life principles. How i make sure my every act and talk never gonna hurt a soul cause I believe that if i could treat people nicely there will come the time that i'll get repaid. If people are to do shut to me means that i must have done something wrong not to deserve the best. God always full of surprises. I never know what He had writen for me,whom had He wrote for me,but whoever is that.he must be someone that i worth getting. I believe that when He took someone from me,He's just preparing someone better for me. At the age of early twenties I guess its just normal that someone wanted to have a plan for another chapter of life as an adult. It's good to see that most of my friends are just preparing to step ahead to those chapter. I feel so much overwhelmed listening to their plans they keep align with their love ones. Allah maha adil eventhough I never be good in His eyes just how much i always tried. If love never come that soon,Hs surwly had an enormous surprise for us. InsyaAllah.

tell the moon i said hye.

2012-01-26T03:03:00.003+08:00

It's 3 in the morning and I couldn't find any other ways to shut my eyes. These three days were hell enough to keep me tired but still I will always stucked in early morning trying to sleep. I used to take cough medicine to get my sleepy,enhancing all the hormones to get me sleeping but I know I shouldn't make that too routine. I started my semester break with hangouts with cousins. I always love this weekend getaway,drove all the way across another state,hitting the gas pedal like no one's business just to spare quality time with my dear cousins,talking non stop and eat like there's no tomorrow. That's what we do best,eat and talk. I miss you cousins. I've started working on Monday,and what could I tell? Our sales always out of target the three days,its very tiring that I almost couldn't feel my legs. But i always love to be around my work mates and come out with hilarious jokes enough to keep us laughing the whole day. I love my work,apart from learning to be independent,I learnt the sisterhoodship we always had. I woke up pretty late this morning,like since when so I wake up early? I'm so not a morning person. Woke up this.morning when ashraf came over to pick up his things,I woke up all messed up catching up with him who stood in front of the door with his navy suit. Can't wait till next week,holiday time peopleeee.
Now I REALLY need to sleep. Good night darlings!

such a candy

2012-01-23T03:11:00.002+08:00

Finals finally finished and that spare me with a month break before the new semester starts,the fourth of six semester how great does that sounds? Err,I seriously out of ideas to compose. Shall come up with one when I could find the right words that lingers on my mind. The few days passed were great. When i walked beside you I feel like walking with someone that i've known in a life time. And i have a long list of my favourite evening with you. Care to stop making me falling? Such a candy. Good night and salam darlings.

feeling lighter?

2012-01-10T17:40:00.004+08:00

Homaigadddddd.

I'm done with bacteriology. You don't know how much I feel the load is lighten. Two more core papers to go,my die hard foe subject mycology and my die hard favourite subject virology. I came out of the exam hall early,not because I am overly confident of my answers,just that i know i won't make any difference staying in longer. I finished the paper one and half an hour early that i have enough time to draft out what to blog,enough time to day dream what I will be like five years ahead. I can't wait any longer till exam finished cause I have tonnes of socialising plans to do. To spent times with girlfriends,vacay with them,the endless laugh and talks,how i miss doing dirty mischievious things with them. Going out with boyfie again tomorrow but haven't come out with what shall we do tomorrow or I'll just tagged along with him and Rafael going fishing,I know i'll scared the fishes away so I might as well bring my pillow over and sleep. That's what I do best,sleep and sleep. I'm not a morning person you know that instead I'm a nocturnal. Weird isn't it? Zits are popping like no one business I always hate the peek time cause you know my hormone always get haywired,overstimulated during that time of the month. I never noticed that i had mood swings during that time but boyfie always tells best when the time approaching. I get oversensitive,well I know i am always sensitive,always be those little weepy girls who runs with tears that's just so me. I'm full and now I need my bed. Assalamualaikum people.

for a thousand years.

2012-01-08T02:09:00.002+08:00

Things are so complicated at first,to be in love with someone you barely know after a massive heartbroken by someone you truely know by heart. My first core paper starts this Tuesday and to tell you the truth I am nowhere ready. With all the problems coming rushing flooding my brain torturing my every nerve cell which one to deal with was not easy. I have problems at home,not literally me but we had problem with my dad and what can I say more,I just don't want to talk about him. How stressful it was to stay home,and last night I had this terrible headache that i feel my head is just exploding in no time and suddenly everything turned dark and i woke up the next morning with the non stop dizziness. Maybe its just the time of the month or I'm just so fucked up stressed that i wish I could run to mama's house,I know i have welcoming open arms there. I know that when I feel like crying they are always preparing shoulders to cry on. Went out with boyfie yesterday,and i shall ticked yesterday as one of the best evening with him. I know we go through a lot to get closer as we are now,to suit each other like a puzzle. I never deny he really took care of me,I know i have nothing to worry about,and he's really the man whom never make me stop laughing,who never ever get tired of teasing me. I wanted to go back to mama's house. I want to eat like no tomorrow with kak Linda,watching Korean shows with kak cik even I have any slightest idea was that a she or a he singing there cause i think all Koreans had the almost resemblance that I will always mistakenly think a he is a she. You got that don't you? I miss to lay down with mama and talked. I miss hanging around with boyfie and Rafael,and their brotherhood bonding. How i wish to run away from my family chaos. Ya Allah I know you took away the piece of him already and replaced with a massive family problems now. I won't whine no more but just don't make mummy hurt so much,its ripping my heart out seeing mummy cries.

Bacteriology paper on Tuesday. Enough to make me shiver the whole day.

Assalamualaikum people good night.

unintended

2012-01-05T00:07:00.003+08:00

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this was during hanni's birthday which was last two weeks ago,maybe? i suddenly feel like uploading these pictures cause i am super duper hungry i feel like crunching this lappy here,and cause the food there was fabuloussssss oh can i say more? mind my super duper oily face cause i was travelling the whole day that day from morning (no,literally its not morning cause you know i'm not a morning person screw you lazy lady) till midnight. i got back home everyone were heavenly snoring. i know i sounded bored,yes i am bored. dear boyfie,can we go for a date please? (like,since when do we actually dating? -__- )

okay i know i'm rambling. byeee.

hello new year!

2012-01-02T15:01:00.002+08:00

It's the second day of the year and how was it going? I just wish this year never be that cruel as last year,I swear 2011 was a hell year. But I would somehow bow to those specific people who make last year so memorable. I came with just one new year resolution that is to hurt less. I tried to be ignorant,to care less what shit people do to me but i has one problem with myself,I cared too much. I ain't saying that people always do shit to me but you know who is the only person that I meant. You're happy now I presumed and I will not spare a space in my heart for him anymore but i know I can't never vanish the wrath and the pain. Last year taught me a lot of life lessons and if I were to list them out it might have been thousand of pages thick. I learnt the most painable pain ever,the pain that I never thought I will have to go through at least not by someone I trusted fullheartedly. I learnt that i can't easily trust people even how much they had melted you at the first chapter. I learnt to be independent as how my dad wanted me to feel the hardship,I'be gone through that. I learnt to earn myself and to spent with a penny worth your sweat that was the most satisfying feeling ever. And to learnt to spend wisely cause I know its not easy to earn and I understand why dad wanted me to feel the hardship,is to appreciate. I know last year was a tough year. I feel I could give myself a pat that i learnt to balance things. As a part timer and a microbiology student,socialising in between I learnt to manage my time. Alhamdullillah I did that perfectly. And then I met this man and from him I learnt the value of a parent and a family. I saw his way treating his mother and i changed the whole perception of him 360 over. I know that i never had courage to see mummy cried cause she's all the reason of my doing. I wanted to keep her smile so that one day she'll never regret of going the hell labour pain back then. I know i only had my brother and i never wanted the blood ties go in vain cause of whatever happenned I know i had my brother to back me up. Blood are always thicker than water remember? I met few fabuluous people through last year,my colleagues who always be the one that keep my laughter even how much pain I tried to hide. I know i have my friends around,I know who to run to when I feel like crying,I know the first person on the dial list when i'm down,I know who to be with to share the roar of laughter. I know friends are just unbeatable,they are like my sisters and brothers. I'll be twenty one this year,the year where teens got their key of fredom. I'm glad that my parents always trusted me to give the key a year faster. They know i always had this high self principle and i always kept them. Just lovely.

My finals start tomorrow. I have another three semester before graduating with a degree how cool was that? This semester was really tough,dealing with bacteria as if they're your another half was just hilarious. The finals really set butterflies fluttering in my stomach. I have to score,I promise you mummy. Wish me luck darlings!

dear God,take this pain away.

2011-12-28T18:04:00.002+08:00

i don't live to impress people,i blog just to express myself,i ain't seeking for attention. i tried to be modest,eventhough i ain't denying that i learned to be perfect. i don't want to create a bunch of foe,i want to create a showering love. this year is ending real soon,and as how much i always vowed i wanted to end the pain buried together with the year. its fun that i finally met my sisters last weekend,chilling out at hanni's birthday party rather than having another lunatic week. i'm glad that i could finally find some time to inhale properly. i never knew i always failed to hide the pain as how my dear sisters could sensed it out somehow. its satisfying that finally i could cry on someone's shoulder letting out all those pain i felt. but one thing that i learnt,i know i should dry the tears by now,never let the warm tears flooding my cheeks anymore. why the hell should i leave in this endless misery for a person who never even appreciate me,who wasted the two years together,who never had a piece of memory of me,who never even care to wish me happy birthday on my birthday? i know i sounded pathetic,but yes i was waiting for his wish the whole day,and how that ruined my twentieth birthday. but on the bright side,i know i will always remember my twentieth birthday somehow.i knew that i should throw the memories miles away,not to even had a piece of mind for a man that leave me struggling on a bad weather day cause i know i always had rain of love spared for me. dear God,i know you're holding my heart. if he is not worth thinking please take away this pain away i'm begging ya Allah.

dear sisters sarah amirah and nazihah syazwani thanks for keeping me strong.

if karma doesn't lie.

2011-12-18T22:32:00.002+08:00

We grow and we age. And at times,we almost forget that growing up isn't easy cause of the people and circumstances we had to go through in between,apart from the pain which blend with the laughter. Life is cruel in a way that we never are allowed to feel just happiness but life is fair in a way that it give equal pain to everyone. I know of the pain I felt but I am far too sure that he will feel the pain too someday,or he had feel the pain,its just that he is far too cruel to let me feel the pain. you got it,don't you? i know i messed up my life,doing things that i barely think i will do,i moved the wrong step,yes. but i know things can't be undo. i know he couldn't possibly be the one i wanted him to be,what i can do is just be the best i can be for him. i always had this thought that,you'll be treat as good as you treat others,as bad as you do shit to others. its karma thing you see. i know that if i deserve to be treated more,i'll get that someday,somehow. and if i didn't deserve to be treated like i'm his life then i must have done something bad to anyone to deserve that. i wanted to play neutral,to act like i'm not hurt,to act like i'm genuinely happy,i wanted to care less about my heart cause i know there's no way out of it. and one thing that i hope,if his name was written for me up there i hope when the time comes,i don't have to pretend to be happy,when the time comes i'll be closer to God,back to the first junction i got lost. insyaAllah.

mistakes.

2011-12-14T14:16:00.002+08:00

mistakes are always unavoidable cause we're not God. but to make mistakes and to undo them were not possible. and how i wish that time never be that cruel so that the time i made mistakes i could pause,rewind and play. there are things that i wished i never did,when sometimes i'll be really depressed thinking of how much mistakes i had done and i could never stop them. i was a rebel back then,i fought with mummy a lot when i was little. i ever run from home when i was little cause mummy always stop me from doing what i want. and being me,i'm the kind of person who gets what i wanted in whatever way ever possible. things got better when i grow up,being an adult to have own reflect of how much parents are the last person i ever wished to hurt. and knowing my parents,they are not the type of parents who sit with you and talked about your life nor a person who planted a goodnight kiss every night,nor a type of parent who wished you happy birthday on your birthday with a box of present,nor a parent who wipe your tears when you cry,not even a parent who fed you with medicines when you fall sick,but my parents are more like a teaching us an independent way of survival. even when i was little,my parents never help me out with homework cause they wanted me to appreciate hardship. i never blame them but i valued their way of raising me up cause i learned to be independent,and i learned to feel hardship to value everything in life. i ain't saying i had bad relationship with my mummy,we shoppped together ( a lot ),we watched movies together,we get our weekend getaway together,but there are things that she don't understand. during her time when she was about my age,she was free to go wherever she wanted,free to go out with a male friend and when i claimed why can't i do that now,she'll just say her time and my time was different. and sometimes i had to lie to do things like that (which is the part i most hated). i wished i could tell her everything,so that i could save myself from mental abusement feeling guilty for lying and so that she'll know exactly my whereabouts. i know well the expectation they put on me and how much i would tell my brother to never let them down,i myself let them down indirectly. i know how much they keep our education at the topmost list,that's why i never failed them with my exam results. i know how much i would strain myself not to say 'no' to them,i know how i would strain myself not to be rude to them,but i'm neither can be a good daughter even how much i tried.
seeing how much people can be disrespectful to their parents,i feel sad to lie even if people would always say,tipu sunat tak pa. it's not really. -_-

if we could stay this way.

2011-12-04T23:59:00.003+08:00

last week was like a hurricane,aligning every assignments and endless revisions and presentation. i'm glad that i could finally inhale properly that all the loads are done. i would say last week was a total relieve. out of all the loads to be done i'm so glad that i could find some time for myself indulge. watching movies,eat till i can hardly breathe that's what i called self indulge. and it's good that finally boyfie had time for me,after all the while being so busy with work that time keep us a distance. you know when you barely had time for yourself and then one moment came with all the indulgement that is so satisfying. when boyfie sent me off to manicure while he went for reflexology,he knows my nails are itching to get pampered. and to walk by the beach,hanging out at starbucks with a full flow of coffee plus the aromatic scent of caffeine that i always love,to go hang around teluk bahang dam with a non-stop munch of cookies,to eat like there's no tomorrow,to talk and teased each other,that's just all i need. it's been a while.
and knowing him,he's not the man who really show his love,nor the man who say sweet romantic words to you apart from saying i love you so much,nor a man who called you any sweeter than calling 'baby',nor a man that would do stupid sweet thing for you. but knowing him too,apart from not being so edward cullen-ish,instead he's a rebel and tempered sometimes,the way he cared for me blows me away. and these days to fall sick is like to fall in love again. and knowing him he can easily makes me laugh.

thanks for the days spent,and thanks for the birthday gift mister!

i'm twenty.

2011-11-30T13:48:00.003+08:00

i'm typing this out as a legal 20 year old adult. i always hate to deal with the fact that its a new big figure in my age. two decades isn't cool,really. birthday just like any normal days and as far as i concern i'm grateful enough that i got to meet the day i turned twenty. eventhough frankly speaking i wish i could have a celebration on the day i turned twenty but with the chaos and my endless mourning period that is just so inappropriate. i know how much i told you people that i had move on pretending that i am okay with the fact that he moves on but deep inside God knows how chaotic it is. i know how people are talking about me jumping into new relationship so sudden but i was totally lost that time. and knowing that he had someone else i keep reminding myself that i wanted to build anew too even with someone i barely knew,someone i hardly believe to put at the top of the world. so being twenty was the most memorable in a sense that being twenty taught me a lot in life,and taught me the painful pain in life. i know i learnt to be independent nowadays and i'm proud that i finally trained myself to get something by hardwork so that i would never put anything i had gained in vain. being twenty i'm proud that people see how much i live my life with my own life principal to train myself to be respectable. how much i would like to say that i may not be rich,i earn to get what i want. i may not be smart but intelligence come with hardwork,i may not be pretty but i planted confidence in me to look respectable,i may not be an angel but i always learn to minimise my flaw.
and being twenty i have tonnes of unfulfilled wishlists. i was a bit dissapointed not to join bibi and hanni for the pitbull's concert ( i guess these two babes are already on their way there and i'm stucked with two lab work till friday) cause that was on my to-do-list-before-i'm 21 so by hook or by crook i'll be joining their concert tour next year perhaps. and to do parachuting too which insyaAllah by this weekend if i still had the courage. and to go to live band perfomances is ticked on a fulfilled wishlist and my favourite thing to do now. you know when you had a hectic week to go sit have a drink in a cafe with a live band really blows you away. but the bad thing is that a splash of memories will come rushing back making you feel like crying listening to the melody. i know its really pathetic that i'm still living in memories eventhough i always denies it.

i need my beauty sleep already. two lab reports to be done,two presentations and two lab works this week took my beauty sleep away. and my plan on go on diet this week to get back a flat stomach is really suicidal. surviving with tofu and grains instead of rice just isn't cool. just enough to make me full but never fully satisfied,yes?

thanks for the fabulous birthday wishes dear friends. ;)

time is our only problem don't you realise?

2011-11-15T02:17:00.003+08:00

sometimes i put everything aligned well to make life looked perfectly simple and easy. and to wake up with reality that life isn't that perfect and easy is just a total depression. and to rise during the day with a promises and to shut down the day without the promise been fulfilled is another depression. and to pretend you are happy eventhough you know well the chaos that you have put aside for the sake of letting an entry of shine and happiness is yet doesn't work well. and to learn the fact that the person you once loved and who once love you had a beautiful life at present and in future without you and without a single bit of memory spare for you are just very very depressing. you know how karma always goes,what goes around comes around. but the thing is,it is the karma for the happiness i felt before or the karma for the upcoming happiness? damn this is one bloody feeling that i always hated. -_-

i never be good in making decision,yes?

12 days ahead,i'm a blessed undefined emotion 20 years old girl. no,20 years old ladyhhh.

soon to be in law trip part 2.

2011-11-11T17:53:00.003+08:00

you know i always value one's attitude based on their treat to the elders. undeniably,i'm not a good daughter though. i fought with mummy a lot when i was little. i'm a rebel too back then but growing with the life scenario full of dramas i know back then was a huge mistakes,i know i'm matured enough to balance the do's and the don'ts on my own.
mid semester break almost over and i still couldn't recalled where the hell did i wasted my time to. time flies so fast you couldn't catch up whats happening in between. i'll be twenty soon,a huge figure i should say.
i've been tagged along with boyfie for a family trip to genting highlands last two days. eventhough i was a bit reluctant to go at the first place,but of course i couldn't say no to mama. she treated me too nicely till there are moments when i sat back and think,what did i do till she cared too much for me? i went back from genting with a high fever,not knowing that my body isn't stabilised with the low temperature. all she did was taking care of me,giving me all those medicines she could find. keep on putting her palm on me checking my temperature,planting me a kiss on the cheek every now and then. how could i hurt her? and there were times kak linda keep on checking on me asking if i'm okay or not and making me laugh with her crack jokes. she's a cracko i tell you i could laugh eventhough i feel half fainted and eventhough i looked like a burnt tomato. and boyfie was there with me all day keeping me secured and stabilised till i fall deep asleep. thanks. ;)
two days with his family were fun indeed knowing how they trusted me to be apart of them some day giving me the oppurtunity to get closer with them. and how much i've been longing to meet my dear baby alya maisarah,i've now have my new favourite baby adli muhaimin. bribed him with starbucks mocha blended and he stay with me the whole day never wanted to let go my hold.

and thanks though for bringing me to the live band. nina is a very good singer though. nevermind if you don't let me hangout with babes for the pitbull concert (eventhough still awaits he could change his mind about it) but bring me to live band like this more often yea darling!

look at darling adli muhaimin he's so adorable. *facepalm*

i'm contented. alhamdulillah.

2011-11-01T14:01:00.000+08:00

i still demanding for the reason why i feel so hectic lately. life is different now,i learnt to be independent and how i spent my time wisely so that i won't regret the time i wasted. i've been back working,two works at once just so heroic. i keep myself busy during weekdays settling down with revision,lab reports (hell no i always hate lab reports),assignments and all college stuff. and i spent long hours working during weekends and yes not to forget,socialising in between. so far i can still catch up with whatever i'm doing,everything are on track eventhough i still couldn't stop myself from skipping classes.
of all the chaos that just passed,i know i've learnt a lot from that. i know that eventhough one give up on me i have a few more welcoming warm hugs to spare me with their love. i've been hanging out with mama a lot lately. we spent time watching movies together,eat and cook together while boo out to work. its fun to have those who welcome me wholeheartedly treating me like they knew me for ages. at once i feel like crying thinking of how much they love me even they just knew me for few months perhaps? while this man that knew me for ages left me without a single regret and yes without even turning back? you're a complete loser asshole.
i love the environment now,everything are just perfectly planned for me. i always keep in mind that when God took someone from you,He's just preparing you from someone better. i'm blessed,yeah so much blessed. friends are just amazingly cool just the way they are. i miss socialising,i miss hanging out with friends and eat till we burst. i miss laughing with them with we got stomach cramp. i miss the time when our mind are linked thinking of the same mischivious thought. i miss our vacay. i miss the time when we all got out of control when vampire looking hot dudes passed by. those time are just valueable just like how friends are on my topmost list of important people in life. i miss you buddies so much.

so well,i guess this is my new start. alhamdulillah God showed me how to overcome my sorrow providing me with fabulous people whom showered me with their love.

and oh,hello november dear jackpot month. i'm 20 this year,make it memorable. :)

i'm fresh as new. hello new chapter.

my first new chapter.

2011-10-25T20:21:00.009+08:00

life would never always be unfair. one moment you will cursed everything and everyone for being so unfair to you and the next moment you will sit still and be thankful of what happenned. just like how i always said,if anything goes wrong with my life i knew whom should i put the blame at the first place.
i tried to move on,but still it takes a lot time than you ever imagined to pick up the pieces and build up another life puzzle. and i never deny the fact that i still keep the wrath till God knows when but still i don't wanna be a complete loser to go straight to him and claim the reason why he did this to me eventhough my heart is urging to do so.
however,apart from the unstabled and haywired feeling i'm having now,i'm just gladful enough that i have this man. we've spent too much time together,with him and his family. i just love to be around them cause i feel so much welcomed and appreciated. one thing that i adored so much about him is just the way he treated his mummy.we always went out together,bring mama along and he will be the one walking in the middle and always locked his arms around me and mama,so adorable you see. eventhough we're still catching up on each other i just love the fact that he's here for me and never let the silence be between us cause he knows how to make me laugh. thanks. ;)

this pic is so adorable. kak cik is a year older than me and she always go around calling me kak mufy. rasa tua. tsk tsk.

they've always had a strong family bonding and it feels great that i'm now bonded together.

ada muka adik abang tak? kahkah.

elmo cekeding.

my new bestfriend,mama.

gives you hell.

2011-10-16T02:00:00.002+08:00

i don't know where to put my life now. but one thing for sure i wish i could go straight to your face and spit this out for putting my life in hell at the first place. cause you're the reason i move the wrong step.

i wish i could feel the love.

2011-09-29T13:48:00.002+08:00

sometimes i feel uncertain of myself,about what am i feeling. there are times when i feel like laughing so hard till i could hardly breathe and there are times when i feel like crying all to myself. and somehow i still find myself curled on the bed crying everynight for god know why. i'm sure enough i'm not living in the sheath of memories but i know i can still feel the pain,and i'm sure there are pieces of my heart that still keep the wrath. and what's worst is that apart from my uncertainty towards myself i feel uncertain of others too,uncertain of others to love me. i learn to love again but somehow i see myself falling apart as i don't allow others to invade my life entirely. there are still blockage at the entry. i want to stop this game,this isn't cool and how much it torture me. of all the things i wanted right know is just to feel the love people spare for me and never doubt it.and of all the things i wished now is just,i wanted to be at the top of the world,i wanted to feel the warm tears of happiness and yes,to be loved. i know i have to keep my life alive and if i failed i know who should i put the blame to.

hardship is the best teacher.

2011-09-20T02:18:00.002+08:00

i've learnt a lot today and i shall write a lot on my life lessons list.
you know i always adore person who stands on their life principes and person who has their own life passion and a person who succeed from their own hardship cause i think its their way to control their life,not life controlling them.
so i know this man. a man whom you put no trust on at the first sight of him. he's a rebel i tell you,but after so long got to know him i see reasons beyond his rebellious act. he told me all the bad things he had done,and how each of his past act reflect back the true meaning of life right in front of his eyes. he told me the hardship he had gone through in surviving,how was it to feel living in a family without the presence of a father who gave up his responsibility towards them and how he took the responsibility of a father towards his family.
he told me how much he had seen how soft woman's heart is back then when his mom got divorced making him vowed to himself that he would never hurt a woman.
he told me how much he had learnt from his past love life,being left by someone he trusted on who left him drowning to go after another man and how his life falls like dominos to rebuilt life when he lost someone he loved. and yet i should be grateful enough that i'm capable of rebuilding life again after my half way broken relationship.
i know his hardship working day and night to give himself a living cause i witnessed his tired face every night eventhough he never whine even a little but it was well written on his face,his expression.
and even so i never deny the fact that he had his negative side too just like how everyone have.
we had gone through hardship to fall in love battling with our own life confusion,we had gone through hardship to be in love and i pray to god that this hardship will make us strong cause i know i never be strong again to be heartbroken.

hola new life

2011-09-15T18:02:00.004+08:00

life goes on better than i had ever wished. i lost someone and God gave me an instant replacement eventhough i still learn to love him by heart. you know the old saying that goes,'once you lost someone that's the signal that God is giving you someone better'. days with him are fun eventhough he knows well i'm still picking up the pieces from my last relationship rebuilding a new life with him,he knows my fear how i would cry on his shoulder telling him i'm so hurt and how i am so feared of getting heartbroken again. the feeling is not the feeling i can endure again. but somehow i'm glad that between the chaos i'm battling in myself he gave me way to rethink and the limitless time he gave to vanish all the fear i had in myself.
i know it's way too early to let someone else in my life but i know i could still give chance to myself to loved and be loved and i wish at the same time the pain and the hatred and the wrath would fade away sooner or later. one thing that surprised me the most about him is that we shared too many things in common. i meant it,too many. the way he thinks and the way i think are always connected and even if i left midspoken finding words to finish my sentence he would know what am i about to say. just like that day when i was so fucking hungry and how i wish i could eat hot and spicy tomyam with white rice (ummmphhh) and without a word spoken to him the next thing i heard from him was,'lets go makan tomyam later'. you know it's so edwardcullen-ish when he could read my mind like that and it scared me sometimes. we love the same thing and hated the same thing. we agreed on little basis of life. like how i always planned on getting a food business in future and out of my knowledge,he's having that plan ahead too. like how we loved being in quiet places rather tham getting ourselves blend in with the chaos.
his family welcomes me so well that i almost forgot i am a stranger. and the first thing people said when they first saw us together was,'you guys look alike. too much resemblance'. well i won't deny it either. so yeah i'm moving on i guess,with a new start.

semester had already started. my third semester in USM and how i pray hard that i would chase away the boredom i felt being here the last two semesters. i wanted to get good results this semester cause i know how much hope mummy puts on me and the last thing i would ever be doing is to hurt her cause she meant too much to me. so far classes went so well eventhough i still couldn't get the lazy feeling away,i am still lazy to go to lectures. but i'm glad that i could wake up early nowadays,starting my morning with a cup of coffee sitting by the window reading novels. how classical isn't it?
i need to improve on many things in life. in controlling my finance the most. i did my financial planning and just like always it's hardly works but we'll see soon.

and anyway,i would thank all my buddies for being with me through my downs,soothing me with your endless care,hear my sobs,lend me your shoulder to cry on. i'm glad i'm over it. it satisfy me much when i could see him with the girl that take away his heart from me right in front of my eyes last saturday.

to dear mr hasrizar razali,thanks for your understanding. ;)

dear god,please take this pain away.

2011-09-08T23:25:00.002+08:00

i know i shouldn't have been writing this,not a right timing when i filled my audio with mariah carey's bye bye song,not when i vowed to myself to put a dot in this.
i never trust love at the first sight cause it's ain't pure,it's just a mere physical attraction. but somehow i trust love could grow so fast that you don't even realised. i lost someone so fast that i don't feel like mourning instantly but i kept myself staring at the dark night mourning now. i can still feel the heart throbbing pain,i can still feel warm tears running down my cheeks,i could feel my own wrath.
i wanted to get over with these,letting in another man in life,a man whom i doubtedly could give me the happiness i wished even if he made promises every second we spent together. i learnt from past experience,a man that i trust wholeheartedly left me unspoken,making me cry in my sleep every night,ripping off all the trust i spare for others. and now i kept this man with false word,telling him i trusted him when my heart keep on denying that. i tried to give way to his words but past experience taught me enough,i'm scared to get hurt and how i wished i could be a kid again run around and get hurt rather than be around trying to fix a broken heart.
i tried to look into his eyes and tell him i love him but there's always something that stopped me. he always be fun to be with,he's like my puzzle,we shared too many things in common,our thought always linked together,our hums always rhyme together,he always know how i would finished my sentences,he always know my body languange,we daydreamed the same thing but i just couldn't made him invade my heart entirely cause i've lost my trust towards MAN out of my own will. i'm just sorry.

stay away.

2011-09-06T12:05:00.003+08:00

it's been like so last season since i update and along with the time i have been through enough,the pain that i couldn't endure,the pain that i never even think off would happen at least not by someone i put faith on.
i could still recall the first time we met,his glance was like so meaningful that gave me a sparkle of mountain high hope that he's the one. i've been through too many ups and downs with him,and i could tell i knew him at the tips of my fingers. but things changes so sudden that i could hardly think of a reason why. and it's like ripping my heart out. you know,when someone comes to you so enthusiastically wanted you to be his other half and left you the moment you couldn't even think what shit you did till he put a knot in your relationship the pain is unbearable. i tried to get over it,filling every space in life with people who wanted me to move on but still two years plus memories are not little to get over. i let people step inside my life,i let people keep me feeling high just to spare me with a little mindset that people still wanted me but it's just too hard to let go all those pain. let me tell you this,you broke up this moment and just a moment later he changed his facebook status just immediately,and another moment he removed all your pictures,and yet another moment he blocked you. isn't that so crystal clear that he just don't want you?

i need to move on,yes i do. and i vow this is the last time i would mention about him and the last time i would dry my tears for him. thanks for the pain,it's the worst pain i ever felt in my 20 years of living. and yes i'm the bloody bitch you always be the angel.

a bucket of experience.

2011-07-16T00:45:00.001+08:00

salam.
it's so last season since i last updated my blog. and you know the previous post was totally a shit,i let out something i shouldn't have revealed,i mean to type out something heart to heart in my blog is not really my thing. that was just some mere depression. and now i would tell you guys some more tense that is heating now.
just so you know i finally had fulfilled my to-do-list to work this semester break.

work was awesome. i have this bunch of people that i love to blend in apart from my snob assistant manager. and plus i have this edward-ish look dude (always walking with his headphone on) working at secret recipe the next door making me and zue went out haywired when he passes by and eyeing him when he went out for break and using the long track to get back to work just to spare us with a chance of seeing him.

i have mikey all the day at work,he's just so nice except that he is the most blur person on earth i've ever met (oh yes apart from kak tiqah. the one i've told you guys about who cannot make a day without falling remember?) but this mikey is shitloads worst than her. you asked him how many siblings he had today he will answered three as sure as hell but when you asked him the next day he might came up with two instead of three.
i have kak nurul and kak odah who always made my day with their non-stop talk and whines about their marriage and their daughter. they just 3 years older tahn me and yet they had beautiful daughter i feel like punching their cheeks so hard. and to tell you the truth,their story make me feel very much inspired to get married. okayyy,i know i sounded like a desperate woman wanted to get married.
i have bibi,the one i always went around with the hottest gossips in town talking about people's love conflict but too hard to reveal her's.
i have syuk the one who nag more like my mom did,i guess more like every mom did. seriously.
i have boy who eyed woman like a hungry tiger aiming for its prey.
so one thing for sure,earning money is not as easy as learning abc. and the tense i felt while working are way different than the tense i usually felt along my studies. you have customer coming in and out with different behaviour you can't hardly understand them. you have a working team with different background and as more days you travel with them you knew them by heart,like who they really are and what are they really doing,what lingers in their mind the first time they had a sight of you. ah yes i do look like someone you can't rely on doing tough work,but just don't judge me.
and as far as i learn,working give me a true meaning of life,a wide range of people and their phsycology,and one most vital lesson,appreciate your parents hardwork providing a perfect life for you.

so i have 12 working hours tomorrow. rasa hebat standing for 12 straight hours. paling lama keja 14 jam sehari. macam superwoman tak? puih.

i dah tengok harry potter tadi,rasa macam nak nangis cause it's the finale series. lepas ni tak dak da la hang nak tergedik gedik nak tengok harry potter bila movie keluaq,tak payah dah call sana sini minta orang teman tengok. but it's worth watching i tell you. sangat touching la part part friendship ni.

till then buddies. good night world.

why do you think life is unfair?

2011-06-22T23:00:00.005+08:00

i talk too much about life though no one ever interested to know. i made too much promises in life though i hardly fulfill any. i made too much mistakes in life though i took it for granted for every mistakes done,never be better.
life never satisfy anyone,any soul,even if you are as rich as bill gates and even if you're stunningly hot as the kardashians,i bet there are pieces that are still missing. standing as a minute person where people hardly acknowledge you maybe you have tonnes of missing pieces in your heart even if it does not appear to you so crystal clear as you keep yourself down finding the answer why should you feel down? and sometimes you just wish body languange could translate your heart. like how a woman always wish her man to understand her without a word spit from her mouth. like the way she trail her fingers down the clothes line in shopping malls and asked a thousand time 'is this beautiful?',that's her body language telling him 'i want this'. like the way woman denies she is okay when infact she's nowhere near that,as sure as hell she is not okay,the way she's telling him 'please make me feel good'. like the way woman always rained a man with question like,'am i pretty?' when she only hope for a yes but denies strongly when he said so,it's her way to tell him,'tell me no one is prettier than me'. nobody is satisfies with their current life. yes,sometime we may be at the top of the word and at another moment,something is missing and that's when tears rolling down without significant reason and yet you can't explain why is that so? we are always amazed how perfect and flawless other's life are when the fact is they felt the same way as we do,it's just that the feelings are camouflage by their physical confidence. as for me,i wanted to be real,to let whatever shit i feel laid in a plain white sheet so i could plan out something but sometime it's just myself who make it tangled even more and never know how to untangle them but just enough to make it slightly loose and yet tangled back another time. laugh this moment and wet your pillow another moment. and i shall write this down in my life leason list,whenever you wanted something don't hope on other to get it. life leason number two,don't daydream too much it hurts just like blade slicing your heart. life leason number three,don't believe in promises,it always stay as words and vanish in the thin layer of air,never be portrayed as action.

thanks for reading.

the piece of me.

2011-06-03T01:21:00.002+08:00

maybe it's just the nature of me i can't accept it when people turn me down. like how i ask abah to let me work which he don't really agree. so maybe you could debate on the point what's the point asking if you just wanted to hear a yes nothing less nothing more. simply because i feel like if ever anyone ever say no i could just persuade for a yes. but i know that only works for abah cause it's a shocking fact that he trust me more than he trust mom and my brother. but surely and absolutely it never works for sepet and some other people. okay actually most of the people. now everything are falling like dominos,one by one. happy?

i'm never be good in doing task in group. i prefer working it alone even if it takes zillion times more hard works cause i know at last i will be fully satisfied with my doing and could give myself a pat. that's why i never trust when people asked what's the best way to study and the only thing that popped up from their mouth just two typical words,'study group'. not that i believed that this so called study group will end up with nonsense but just because every individuals have different way of understanding and mixing up all the thoughts can sometime make you even more confused. and sometime when people didn't do the task in my way i feel the urge of redoing it,my way. so yes,you might tell,i'm a lone ranger in this. and selfish?

i'm the kind of organized type of person. like how i hang my clothes(never be inside out),how i wrote(never be a scribble or else i'll rewrite if if i had to rewrite the whole book),how i kept my papers (never be a flip or i'll iron it back if i can),how i emptied my bag after each day and put back whatever necessary for the next day and so on. and how blessed am i,people around me is a mess. bro always keep his school shirt hanging everywhere,not to say his school books lying all over his bed,and mom always kept her emptied glass of coffee underneath the sofa after each drinks so i have to collect a glass per day since she had a cup of coffee per day. but i just couldn't care less,i'm tired of cleaning up the mess and kept repeating it every hour. how fun it is right?

i love planning and designing. like how i always wanted to try out interior designing or architecture when i was little (which is obviously now i'm nowhere in that path) so i kept on planning things. like how should i spent this semester break,how much should i spent in a month (i have an envelope of receipts and its always off target),i planned family vacation (fixing the dates,and booking airlines tickets),i planned birthday surprises (like last time when i prank little cousin with flour,like last time i prank ekin on her birthday with poppers when she is snoring all the way to the dreamland,like last time i prank kak tiqah on her birthday together with these awesome people and she ended up give us the prank back,chasing us all over the block),i planned my own birthday party (but obviously it never turned on so i guess that was it,stop doing it to make yourself happy). i know i have a great plan ahead but plan is always a plan,what's questioning is does it ever working? you know the answer,it's never gonna be the way we always wanted it to be. beautiful ain't it?

we made mistakes all the way even if we didn't realise it. but even if we realised it we tend to shove away the thought blaming others for it. just like how i knew well that i was my mistake and i will turn the world upside down acting as if it was sepet's fault and he would be all quilty at the end. sorry sayang,my bad.

so i'll end up with a good night. thanks for reading this piece of shit peopleee!

life never be that easy nor be that hard.

2011-05-31T23:38:00.004+08:00

alright i've been keeping myself out of spilling whatever inside for two weeks perhaps? eventhough macam banyak sangat i nak cerita and too much things happened these few weeks. and there are some i feel like not sharing. sakit hati tau tak?

1. i tak ingat dah bila (and obviously this occur long ago that i couldn't recall the date),went out with sepet's family. i mean his entire family. ni bukan first time i jumpa family dia tapi tuhan jek tau betapa nervousnya i nak keluaq sekali. not that his mom looks like cinderella step mother tapi you know,perasaan nervous and feels like peeing all the time tu just unbearable. and of course lagi satu masalah is nak pilih baju apa nak keluaq. ohmaigod i almost cried nak pilih baju apa (okay that's so inappropriate to cry kan? i know) and at last i end up pakai baju yang i selalu pakai pergi kuliah (even if you consider it sopan). not that i jadi hipocrite acting not like myself tapi nak pergi jumpa orang tua,as in orang yang lebih berumur mesti lah kena sopan sikit kan? sepet boleh buat lawak texting me masa dalam kereta walaupun ada belakang i jek boleh bayang macam mana i dok tahan gelak? he's just so darling like always. ;)

2. i met specialist last week because of my allergic problem. well you know how much this allergy kills me. okay you obviously don't know. but believe me it really kills me. and now i guess my whole body feels like burning maybe sebab ubat yang dia bagi too strong. but it must pay the price to get back the supple skin as ever. no shopping for 10 months,i'm investing lots of penny for this specialist. you have no idea how much this no shopping makes me tremble. do you guys feels down for not spending? actually i did. is that baddd?

3. i hardly home last few weeks. bukan nak kata i ni orang bekerjaya busy nak mati,i'm still jobless until now. but spending time with best buds is the best thing to take away the lone inside. kalau stay rumah memang sumpah rasa nak meroyan boring nak mati and the only thing yang i boleh buat nak hilangkan rasa boring tu is tidoq the whole day and when i woke up i feel dizzy macam baru turun dari roller coaster. (i ride on roller coaster once and i swear that's the last thing i ever do again!) so anyway dah lari dah dari apa yang i nak cerita actually. it's so good to see your best buds again after all time separated and it's even more nicer to have your laughter rhyme with them. like seriously i hardly remember the last time i laugh my lungs out cause USM is bored and you never gonna believe how different i am outside. maybe orang tengok i macam budak innocent or even nerd (i'm so not. really) but wait till you hear me laughing i'm sure you'll twist your perception 360 degree. it's not that i'm being another personality but it's just that i can't fit myself with people in USM. but still there are some who rock my life there(there's asna who yells at me three rooms away and talk about boyfriend while on shower,there's kak tiqah who is orang paling blur pernah i jumpa and she never gonna make a day without falling,there's ekin who always eye-ing hot dudes with me and so on) but still not enough compared to the life i used to have in matriculation and high school and even primary school. those buds are just hilarious. and you,aida hernita the most hilarious person i've ever met! those buds from schools and matriculation always be the one i could tell everything. like everythinggggg! even my darkest secret yes they know it well. i don't mind telling them anything,i don't mind come to them all shaggy and cry on their shoulder,i don't changing clothes in front of them,i don't mind sharing bed with them,even pillow together that's just how genuine we really are. but it's the other way round with my present life and i don't know why. so why am i telling you this? cause i love to be around with my best buds. thanks a zillion thanks to you guys!

4. my brother is not around. maybe it sound like no big deal but you see,he's my only brother you have no idea how much he meant to me. i still sleep with him even abah always scolding us for sleeping together which i don't see why couldn't i sleep with him. we used to joke around and play as if we were 7 chasing around the house,he's always yelling how much he thinks i'm fat which i'm not kan? just agree with me this time(i still feel fat cause i have double chin which make me look horrible and i don't know how to get back to single) so that's it,i always wanted he around. cause he's the one i could demand everthing apart from sepet who is the best of all. keh keh. i miss you brother.

5. yesterday balik kampung. how i miss my grams and aunties. i always had this dream to plan on a holiday with my whole big family bring grams together but surely it's not gonna happen real soon. she meant a lot to me cause she's the one who took care of me when i was little,filling me in about tiny little details of life and how should i behave. she's the only one who called me adik when everyone calling me kakak. you know being the oldest of all is tough,i get scolded out of my own mistake. but i guess that's the one that keep me learning and appreciate. i don't want to lose her,seing her ill as i still remembered watching grandpa passed away 13years ago when i was just clueless,and i thought i'm gonna see him again.

6. as i say i'm jobless and it's mid year sale you know how does it feel don't you? i know i have this agreement 10 months no shopping with myself but i just can't help it. how can i stay still without spending and it's mid year sale oh come on!

7. I MISS MY MAN TERRIBLY. IT'S BEEN ALMOST A MONTH NOT SEEING HIM,ALMOST A MONTH HE;S NOT RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME TEASING ME AND ALL,ALMOST A MONTH I COULDN'T WATCHED HIM EAT A BUCKET OF KFC AND A WHOLE CHICKEN OF DAVE DELI'S,ALMOST A MONTH I COULDN'T HEAR HIM LAUGHED TILL PEOPLE JERKED THEIR HEAD TO OUR DIRECTION,ALMOST A MONTH HE DIDN'T PISSED ME OFF KENTUT TAK HENTI HENTI JUMPA I! OHMAIGOD I MISSSSS HIMMMMM! okay fine.

fuhhh what a long post!

my two best buds from matriculation. that's the hilarious aida hernita an sharifah aina. single and available. i lebiuuu you both!

meet aida and zul. zul yang selalu teman i balik dari arau ke penang naik feri. sehidup semati bersama dari matrik sampai USM. WTH kaw-nya ayat hang! keh keh.

thanks for reading. why does it take light years to upload even a picture? and damn,it's corrupted. pfffttt!

this is how i get so obsessed.

2011-05-15T20:55:00.010+08:00

good evening people.
i'm in real mood to blog cause i have tonnes to write,i mean to type it here. eventhough i know i will cut short in the middle,forgetting every single words that browse through my mind since morning on what shall i write here. typical me.
went out shopping with mom,every day is a mom-daughter date to me. and we came across another new fragrance from gucci. flora by gucci and i know well what lingers deep inside mom's mind,she's gonna get one real soon and i'm aiming for CK euphoria. that's one thing i shared with mom,fragrance lover. sales everywhere,okay not really everywhere but guess is finishing off the stock and you could get a handbag less than 200 bucks worth of penny cause come on,where else can you bargain guess handbag no more than 300 bucks?

bro is not home for almost two weeks,i could have rotten of boredom here. not that he is much helpful in making me feel alive at home but at least i can bore his ears nagging all the way. now i sound like some loving-caring sister oh so not me. he's involved in SUKMA and i can't get any slightest idea why is that sport is so important to him. not that i never do sport (oh have i? yes i did aerobics. HAHA that is foolish) but he is just so into it,SO INTO IT you get me don't you? abah drags us every weekend for a jog long ago before i lost three pairs of adidas nowhere how pathetic that one pair of it was stolen by some people who came collect garbage each weekend and does my shoes look like a garbage he brought it away with him? okay i know i mumble much but the point is,should sport be that importantttt?? i ain't protesting agaisnt it okay,its just that,just it's not THAT important.

and oh do you know my current obsession now? okay i know this is oh-so-outdated but i just can't take my eyes off damon salvatore oh come on don't you think so??? i'm now obsessed with vampire diaries,okay anything about vampire literally as me and PK always agree that any vampire movies with super hot and sexy with six packs vampire will get highest rating plus will make the if-vampire-real-existing-i-might-get-one-as-my-boyfie girls (okay that's me even i'm no more a girl) get hysterical. don't you agree? but this vampire diaries is really haunting me i can't believe one day i woke up and think that that world really exist. okay i know that's just me still living in a world where the impossible is possible. i know it's so ermm,childish? but i'm serious as hell now,ian somerhalder is just hot to death,plus he always do the smirk that is so sexyyyy,i should bold this,SO SEXY! and plus he is so funny i tell you. sorry that i sound like i just got down from Mars,that i'm too much obsessed with this dude. but i tell you,he is nowhere compared to robert pattinson who is just sexy as a vampire he never be that sexy in other movie,even in the water for elephant but this boyfie of mine,i mean ian somerhalder is all time sexy don't you get it? i really can't wait for the third season. ohmaigod i can't believe i get so excited talking about him. and yeah i know sepet gonna chopped my head off reading this. HAHAHA.

i'm so much indulge by chocolate indulgence these few days i might throw off now.

ps: told you i will end the post halfway,i've forgotten already. screw me.

isn't he hot and sexy???

meet the goodness paul wesley and the hero of darkness ian somerhalder as salvatore brothers. why did sexy people have to be those who are so bad i wonder?

when it's good then it's good.

2011-05-11T00:46:00.003+08:00

hari ni rajin terlebih two post once. i'm finishing off this remnants of glucose left to be oxidized and i'm filling up again later. i can't help it suka makan tengah tengah malam. tengah tengah malam ni lapaq tak terhinggaaaaaaaaa am i emphasizing much? betul tak tipu lapaq gila sampai rasa nak pengsan. eh tipu tipu.
sekarang tengah layan lagu siti nurhaliza i can't believe my ears. tak tau mood apa malam ni rasa nak layan lagu leleh sorang sorang hambat sepet tidor awal awal. keh keh.
i was out with him today. lama gila tak jumpaaa. kalau i cakap lama gila tak jumpa tu maknanya baru 2 minggu tak jumpa not like lama gilaaaaa okay.
sepet i makin hari makin besar eh eh tak kenal dah laki sapa. keh keh.
he's playing too much drama today SUMPAH LAH SEPET YOU CAN WIN THE BEST ACTOR AWARD SERIOUSLYYYY.
and yet he come out with sort of things to get on my nerve. i lebiulahhhh.

thanks so much for the anniversary in advance present. i love it boleh tak nak jerit kuat kuat? ;))

macam ni lah kalau keluar berdua jek. hang tangkap gambaq aku,aku tangkap gambaq hang. you have double chin too sepet tak payah gelak keh keh keh kat i kata eh you ada double chin. fair and square. tapi tak puas hati jugak. macam mana i boleh ada double chin. ohmaigoddd. ni nak tension ni.

sekarang seriusss tension okay bai.

bring me to life.

2011-05-10T23:48:00.008+08:00

it's been a long day yet i still couldn't put the right words to start as if it's stuck at the tips of my tongue.
it's been a while since i last rolled off laughing.
macam tu lah manusia kalau dah dapat tak pernah nak cukup nak jugak yang jauh yang tak tercapai.

it's almost dark by this time tapi matahari saja nak seksa kitew dengan UV light walaupun UV protection sangat dititikberatkan.

PK trying something outrageous but turn out nampak big butt kitew. ohmaigod.

this was during anum's brother's wedding. muka setalam jangan salahkan genetik sebab kitew sorang jek dalam family muka setalam macam tu.

thanks PK for the photos. this guy ain't gonna stop talking and ain't gonna stop blaming me making him eat all day finish off my spageti and sundae and yet he goes 'wey awat keluaq dengan hang kerja lapaq ja?! haa memang sebab aku derma jin kebuloq aku kat hang.

thanks for reading buddies.

truly from your daughter.

2011-05-08T14:21:00.003+08:00

salam people. salam dari kite suri rumah sepenuh masa. lama kan kite tak update blog ni kan kan? maklumlah semenjak jadi suri rumah sepenuh masa ni paham paham jelah you all. belemoih tahap dewa la nak habaq mai. keh keh apa hang merepek?

banyak benda i nak update but too bad i'm just out of words at the moment,everything got stuttered already and i hate it. i'm still jobless and i don't think it's a bad thing or even a good thing either sebab saya manusia pemalas tak nak kerja tapi nak duet shopping. thank God mak i masih lagi melayan kerenah anak perempuan sorang dia ni yang suka shopping she gave me something on mother's day. confuse i sapa yang sambut mother's day sebenarnya. on her birthday pon mak bagi i perfume baru,lagi confuse birthday sapa sebenarnya. that's not a deal what day it is,she gave me everything i ever wish. i have nothing special for you mom but i'm planning something special upcoming.
i used to have bad relationship with mom when i was little sebab mak selalu marah i yang sangat sensitif ni so kalau kecik kecik dulu banyak kali jugak lah bergaduh dengan mak sampai tak cakap,semua buat sendiri lah kiranya nak independent tak nak mak tolong,baju basuh sendiri,cari makan sendiri,iron baju sendiri gila ego nak mati i dulu. anak derhaka sungguh i dulu sungguh menyesal tapi i never used bad words to mom and i masih rasa lega.
and as i grow up,mak always be my best friend. yes i brought her everywhere. and i vowed to never let her down,i'm giving something for her so that she won't cursed herself for being a bad mother cause she's just wonderful.
when i was little she never help me out with my homework. tak pernah langsung mak i tolong i buat kerja sekolah. cuma sekali jek waktu darjah satu cikgu suruh lukis gambaq perempuan kat taman i balik rumah menangis sebab i'm that bad in drawing and i know it's impossible for me to draw. seriously,you never wanted to see my drawing. and that was the only time mak tolong i buat kerja sekolah. tapi macam mana pon i get what mom wish to teach me back then,dia cuma nak i independent so that bila i tak tau something i will work out something to find that out.
and there was time when i was little i suka conteng dinding. karya teragung la konon. bila mak nampak i conteng dinding she gave me an eraser pastu suroh i padam sampai tak dak kesan dah kat dinding which is impossible sebab i drew with pens and coloured pencil. kreatif tak bertempat lah budak ni. and i learned what she was teaching behind it,bila dah buat salah admit your fault and try to fix it. and that's what i stand for till now.
when i was little kalau masa makan i have to finish my meal in any way baru i boleh bangun. kadang kadang sampai menangis nangis sebab tak boleh habiskan nasi mak paksa makan sampai habis. i now knew what she was trying to teach me. mak cuma nak i belajaq bersyukur and kalau banyak tu rezeki i,bersyukur lah dan jangan membazir.
and bila dah besar ni,kalau i buat salah dia tak kan marah dah instead of dia cuma tegur i sebab i paham dia nak i sedar sendiri salah i dan apa yang dia dah ajar i kecik kecik dulu.
i selalu tanam segala apa yang i buat niat untuk tuhan dan mak. sebab i rasa tu yang bagi i restu.
thanks mak for everything. i owed you a lifetime. mak orang yang paling orang sayang dalam dunia ni.

lots of love,your daugther.

my TO-DO-LIST.

2011-05-04T16:56:00.004+08:00

so as you all know budak budak degree ni dimanjakan lebih lebih bagi cuti lama lama. so kalau tak guna cuti ni betul betul,menyesal der!

4 MONTHS BREAK TO-DO-LIST.

1. kerja. walaupon tak dinafikan i memang malas nak kerja kalau boleh nak duduk rumah goyang kaki,or jadi maid tolong kemas rumah tapi disebabkan empat bulan tu terlaluuuu lama dan empat bulan tanpa duet tu sangaaaaaaaat menyeksakan so terpaksa la cari kerja. i'm not up to any work by now,which everyone,i really mean EVERYONE is doubting my capability to work and frankly i'm still doubting whether i really can work. cakap jek i nak kerja kat kawan i semua macam,'ohmaigod seriusly? *dengan mata terbeliak* 'hang manja macam ni macam mana nak kerja'. haaa,macam tu lah kan tak percaya orang, tak pa tak pa.

2. GANTI PUASA. malu sebenarnya i nak tulis ni kan kan tapi satu hari pon tak ganti lagi. malu sebenarnya nak bagitau. ish apa gedik sangat? hari tu ekin ajak ganti puasa i tak ikut ganti dengan dia pon sebab i tau kalau i ganti masa masa genting iaitu masa kuliah lentok lah i dalam kuliah. terserlah habis lah keayuan semulajadi ni. so anyhow esok i dah nak start ganti puasa. at least kalau ganti puasa kat rumah time berbuka boleh lah i masak apa saja yang nak melantak masa berbuka pastu boleh lah menyeksa adik hitam i jangan bagi dia makan selagi i tak makan. hip hip horay.

3. vacay with babes. okay yang ni tak boleh nak riak sangat sebab selalunya budak budak ni plan mesti tak jadi. so for the sake of to-do-list untuk cuti ni tulis lah jugak kan walaupon nampak gayanya macam tak jadi. plan ke langkawi dengan the gediks maybe this month tolong lah wahai budak budak tersayang make it happen. tau tak i missed the vacay you guys pergi buat manicure pedicure semua kat sana jeles tau tak? tau tak rindu korang sangat sangat,bila lagi kita nak gelak berjemaah? dan jugak lagi satu vacay yang tak tau jadi ke tak with USM bebeh nak pergi genting before the semester starts,i know it's all gonna be fun and hilarious but just don't let it be just words?

4. reunion. okay,tak lah reunion sangat but there are list of people i wish to meet this semester break. aida hernita,you the first in my mind. sumpah nak jumpa mak cik ni desperately sebab i think she owed me tonnes of updates and of course i need to laugh along with her just like before! ohmaigod excited tau tak? and the next should be ayuni amirah,please count for me berapa lama dah kita tak jumpa yuyu? i rindu nak dengaq dia bercerita because she's very good in that,kalau cerita dengan animation semua sapa tak suka kan? and of course siti alyaa! it's been long ago since i meet her,since habis secondary school i supposed? she called last week just to catch things up with me and surely we gonna have highschool besties meet up soon. i miss her. alyaa and her lawyer-ish talk precisely. and along with that meet ups with all my high school besties and primary school babes!

5. room makeover. okay this is a need cause my room doesn't look anymore like a fairytale like room cause bro mess it up and i see reasons why i should nag to him everytime he gets home. my bro is a mess i tell you. and he keeps his stuff away from where they really should be and the time when i clean up his mess,he would need me more than ever just to know where did i dumped his stuff. and it pissed me off bila tengah best best shopping he would called,'wey mana hang lempaq underwear aku?' he's a mess. really.

6. languange brush up. this does not sound hilarious at all cause i never gonna give up reading. i've bought 5 new novels and i'm planning of buying historical encylopedia on hikayat merong mahawangsa. fun isn't it? hehe. actually i am considering of repeting MUET. i need a better grade that would put me at a more secure place tapi bila pikir balik sanggup ka nak repeat?

7. i'm planning on a more healthy diet. more vege and fruits and less iced drinks. cause i have a severe allergic problem and i couldn't understand why so there you go,maybe i should consider my meals? and of course i don't want to get the figure 5 when i weighed. i'll stick to 49,even it gives me enough trouble for being an underweight and it does me no good it i have normal BMI either. and plus once a week jog just if i could get a new adidas please abah?

8. i'm doing home tutor for my bro and his friends. at least no one ever doubt my capability of teaching. anyone?

9. more cooking showdown. awh,i know this is my favourite!

10. jadi cinderella kat rumah ni. phew!

uhh,i'm hungry. shall continue later.

thanks for reading. salam.

when it comes to family.

2011-05-03T22:51:00.004+08:00

salam people.
ke mana i menyepi dah lama tak update blog ni? bukan merajuk sebab blog i boring tapi saja ingin menyepi dari dunia siber? ayat macam nak menyepak,gedik gilaaa!
so anyway exam da habis a week ago. tapi malas nak cakap apa apa pasal exam sebab i tau kalaui aim tinggi ka rendah ka memang result tak kan memuaskan. sesungguhnya lecturer USM semua kedekut markah nak bagi A pon payah ni nak merajok ni. ;]
last paper i biochemistry which i should say i suka subject tu walaupon rasa nak meroyan study biochem but however i tak sedaq diri jugak malam sebelum exam tu habiskan lima episod vampire diaries,semua salah asna influence i sangat dengan damon salvatore ohmaigoddd kenapa hot sangat? kenapa suka buat mata sexyyyy dan angkat angkat kening macam tu i asyik mimpi mimpi okayyy?
so apa yang i nak cakap is just i sangat menyesal i bullshit my biochemistry paper. nak harap A memang jauh ke langit even how good you think you answered so i cuma harap not a C pleaseee? who am i begging for?

cuti empat bulan ni is just toooo much you have no idea how much i'm gonna waste my time. i have come up with to-do-list and i shall post it soon.
baru seminggu cuti i dah rasa boring nak mati and how i prefer balik USM walaupon dalam hati ni tak lah cinta sangat USM tu tapi at least ada jugak orang nak sembang,boleh melepak dengan asna tak pun gosip dengan roommate tentang kisah cinta masing masing.
kalau duduk rumah nak gosip kisah cinta dengan adik hitam i tu gerenti dia tak layan tak pun give me the pleaseshutup look,terlerainya hati. ee,pehal hang guna ayat P ramlee?

weekend lepas balik kampung,its good to have cousins around.
maklumlah cousin i semua kaum kaum hawa so kalau dah gather semua tu memang riuh satu rumah lah. sumbat semua lima lima orang tengok movie kat notebook i so boleh bayang lah kan banyak mana sangat hang boleh tengok? makeover,dancing tu memang wajibbul la kan? i love you cousins.

we have reception that day,abang faizal kahwin,bila i nak kahwin ni?! rasa macam baru kelmarin we used to play around,he teasing me and all. but somehow bila tengok how they plan things up,tengok bridal dress cantik cantik i can't wait to plan up my own reception and design my own bridal dress which i knew that's not gonna happen so soon. not until i'm done with my pHD. sedih tak? sedih tak?

that's all for now people. thanks for reading.

abaikan muda retarded gila kat depan tu,tak padan dengan gigi buruk husnina amalia tu.

i la kakak budak budak ni tak sedaq diri umor da 20 boleh pulak camouflage berlagak muda mudi gitu.

tomorrow.

2011-04-18T00:09:00.004+08:00

esok dah start final. paper TITAS yang sangat menyakitkan hati berjuta kali baca pon tak ingat dah.
i dah berserah untuk final esok. kalau keluaq segala dinasti dan tamadun i'm sure gonna bullshit all the way.
kalau keluaq apa erti tamadun belum tentu boleh jawab.
kronik tak? memang patot i nangis nangis risau final sem ni pon.
mak abah sorry kalau result sem ni tak memuaskan but i've tried real hard. i love you both. i miss you both walaupon baru jumpa tiga jam lepas. ;(

dah tau nak exam sempat lagi pergi tengok 'limitless' memang patot bagi penampaq berkali kali yea tak? tudung tak jadi sebab tak iron. you see now why sepet panggil i kuih pau?

GOOD LUCK FOR THE FINAL BUDDIES! oh kenapa perlu caplock,bold pulak tu?

thanks for reading. salam.

i'm still living with the memories.

2011-04-15T23:35:00.004+08:00

yesterday was 14th of april and how much more can time speed,i was waiting for yesterday after all.
kalau budak budak matrik mesti perasan sekarang ni profile picture semua da tukaq letak logo matrik masing masing i tak perasan langsung what's really going on but yesterday was the first anniversary since we left matriculation!
how fast the time flies i masih lagi ingat petang petang kitaorang selalu ronda ronda konon ambik angin tapi rupanya cuci mata,kalau makan kat cafe mesti kena marah dengan abang cafe sebab tak sabaq sabaq tunggu makanan siap,kalau masuk library mesti kena halau sebab bising,kalau beli aiskrim mesti mutiara kita tu bagi jatuh satu scoop pastu buat muka tak bersalah,kalau beli daging burger jek mesti i bagi jatuh depan kedai fotostat dah la bagi jatuh depan laki hot kat sana pastu gelak macam orang gila and he was clueless there and kawan kawan i dah lari tinggal i terpaksa cover malu sorang sorang.
malam jumaat memang malam heaven selalu hag out dengan kawan kawan buat prank calls dan gelak sampai perot ketat. pastu buat milo dalam besen ais cube lebih lebih tu baling jek kat sapa sapa yang lalu kat koridor tu. HAHA.
kalau kelas kimia mesti lambat masuk sebab pergi beli bahan untuk picnic dalam kelas,kalau kelas biologi i akan jadi bahan gosip lecturer i,and bila sepet lalu tepi kelas kitaorang satu kelas akan buat bunyi boleh paham betapa malunya i. kalau presentation english selalu bahan orang yang buat presentation dari belakang sampai diorang kena tahan gelak masa present tu.
now you know how much matriculation had created the bonds in just less than a year that the memories there a still planted deep inside.

matriculation was not my first choice after all,like seriously it's my last choice.
lepas dapat result SPM tu i was aiming nak further foundation in UM. walaupon UM tu sama jek dengan matrik tapi bila bagitau orang yang you tengah further studies kat matrik people might give you the look,'matrik tu macam tempat student buangan untuk student result tak berapa bagus'. and bila you survive kat matrik and get good results people gonna go WOW to you.
matriculation was not a bad start really.

i was always thinking,why the hell out of all matriculation in here kenapa i dihantar ke perlis matriculation which is not in my choice list?
i've gotten the answer now. my man is waiting there. ;)

and i know i'm gonna proved something to my previous biology lecturer,i'll come back in 6 years time perhaps.
thanks for reading people. salam.

i miss you guys!

i'm still procrastinating.

2011-04-11T22:21:00.011+08:00

please kill me now i'm wasting my time to go online where i'm supposed to be done with calculus today.
and titas is giving me headache i turned out sleeping with titas book all over me. please tell me how could i survive studying sejarah back then and not now?
okay if i were to be here longer i'm gonna messed up my study plan this week.
tapi kalau tengok movie sambil study tak pa kan? ngeh ngeh.

this was last saturday. macam i cakap dekat roommate hari sabtu hari bersuka ria so hari sabtu i'm surely gonna give myself a break. so there you go,karaoke dengan sepet. okay this is my first time karaoke. why didn't you tell me tempat karaoke tu sangat gelap ohmaigod sangat gelap boleh tak? make me freaking out. pfftt. si sepet kaki karaoke so tengoklah muka kusyuk dia karaoke.

i sememangnya bukan kaki karaoke hanya mampu mengedik tangkap gambaq diri sendiri dalam tu. muka shining shining gitu walaupon hakikatnya tak shining langsung. kecewanyaaa.

lepas karaoke turn i pulak shopping barang makanan. semua untuk stok makanan tak mau keluaq bilik waktu study week. kononnya. baju tu oversize,jangan tertipu i tak gemok macam tu. okay,konon lagi. konon tak gemok.

okay ni favourite i lagi. my forever favourite makan sorbet kat baskin robbin. tengok muka puas dapat makan sorbet tu youuu.

it's our forever favourite place to dine in. plus sepet's food heaven. i da give up sebab dah makan siam express so semua tu dia habiskan. including tiga pinggan nasi dan 20 cucuk satay. tu lah rahsia sepet i tu slim sangat. HAHA.

kan dah cakap semua licinnn.

muka tak larat tunggu sepet makan. mintak maaf gambaq awak tak dak sepet,nampak sangat perot hot you tu dalam semua gambaq. nanti orang lain tergoda pulak tak boleh nak upload. HAHA.

thanks for reading people. salam.

ni lah sebab i makin mundur i guess.

2011-04-05T20:31:00.002+08:00

salam people.
sebagai mana yang hampa hampa semua tau i merupakan penangites sejati yang sebagai mana yang hampa hampa tau penangites ni kan antara manusia manusia yang selalu jadi bual mulut orang yang dok kata penangites ni antara manusia manusia gedik. orang kata lah kan tapi kalau you guys kata i gedik memang lah i gedik tapi segedik gedik i tak lah i nak mengedik dengan sebarang orang kan.
so yeah intro yang sangat menusuk jiwa dan kalbu.

setelah menilik balik result sem lepas yang sangat mendukacitakan i rasa i dah tau awat result sem lepas macam taik and now i feel like puking.
so let's cekidaut!

disadvantage kalau pintu universiti tempat hampa study tepi pintu rumah hampa:

1. tiap tiap hari balik rumah. so kalau dah balik rumah tu memang sodap lah kan tilam kat rumah tu so hampa hampa mungkin akan terkandas atas tilam empuk tu so kuliah pon tak pergi sebab overslept.

2. kalau tiap tiap hari jugak balik rumah mak hampa mesti masak sodap sodap kan kan so possibility untuk naikkan berat badan dan tambahkan kilo kat pipi ni(hanya untuk kes i yang pipi tembam) memang sangat tinggi la. okay sekarang i dah dapat sebab i makin tembam dan bulat.

3. dan bila tiap tiap hari balik rumah mesti lah i akan terkandas dekat queensbay atau gurney. walaupon hati tak merelakan tapi wa gerenti sama lu der mesti lu akan jumpa wa kat sana punya la!

4. bila weekend menjelma mesti ada orang calling calling 'bebeh,p cyap cepat i'm otw ambik you kita keluaq tengok wayang.' tu adalah influence influence sahabat handai yang ada kat penang ni so weekend hampa memang burnt macam tu saja tak kan study jugak. walaupon tak weekend pon akan mengalami situasi yang sama.

5. bila hampa ada dekat dengan family hampa dan hampa merupakan driver seluruh alam mestilah hampa akan p sana sini untuk menjalankan tanggungjawab sebagai driver seluruh alam. contohnya macam ni:
adik hitam i : woi gemok,mai hantaq baju softball aku.
i : okay der.
adik hitam i : woi gemok lupa nak suroh hang hantaq kasut aku sekali mai hantaq sat.
i : *dengan muka tak puas hati pergi pulak hantaq barang kat dia*
adik hitam i : wey aku dah habeh training mai ambik aku.
i : *muka tak puas hati macam nak baling kasut*
so macam tu lah situasi i so kalau hampa pon driver seluruh alam macam i jangan study dekat rumah.

6. tak kan rasa pengalaman sesat kat tempat sendiri. hanya boleh layan kerenah kawan kawan yang sesat kat penang ni. weekend weekend ada lah nanti orang call,'wey macam mana jalan nak p kayu ni. aku sesat.'

7. hidup hampa tak berkembang. macam i la. sedih tak sedih tak?

8. hampa tak kan rasa seronok sebab dah biasa dengan atmosphere kat sini. kalau kawan kawan i excited dapat p pesta penang naik top gun segala bagai,you tell me how many times i've been there? kalau kawan kawan i excited pergi shopping gurney i pulak sibuk ulang alik ke KL cari bukit bintang. kalau kawan kawan i excited nak tunggu bukit bendera siap renovate nak naik train bukit bendera i excited nak naik cable car genting highlands.

9. bila time raya muka hampa sorang jek tak bersinar sinar sebab hampa sorang jek tak excited nak balik rumah.

advantages kalau pintu universiti hampa tepi pintu rumah hampa :

1. MAKAN FREE! kenapa i caplock? sebab kawan kawan i selalu jeles kalau i balik makan kat rumah.

2. kalau akhir sem bila kena kemas bilik dan angkut barang barang balik rumah boleh bawak angkatan sepupu sepapat tolong angkut barang balik rumah.

3. boleh jadikan sahabat handai kat sini sebagai driver hampa. HAHA.*gelak kejam* kenapa perlu gelak kejam? sebab selalunya i yang jadi driver orang.

4. TAK PAYAH SUSAH PAYAH NAIK BAS KALAU NAK BALIK KAMPUNG. kenapa perlu caplock? sebab i tak suka berhimpit himpit berebut bila nak naik bas dan angkut beg besaq besaq sampai senget bahu i boleh tak.

5. hampa akan jadi orang last balik asrama. ngeh ngeh.
okay thanks for reading.

review on ABPBH.

2011-04-04T18:12:00.004+08:00

hari ni bukak blog jek ramai dah yang update tentang ABPBH semalam.
tu la kan sapa suruh bangun lambat hari ni,kalau tak awal awal lagi kan i dah boleh update pasal ABPBH kan. walaupon gayanya macam la i pergi arena of starts genting highlands semalam kan walaupon hanya menonggeng tengok tv dekat bilik tv saujana saja. alahai,kenapa sedih sangat bunyinya?
memang ramai puji event semalam. sangat hidup even semalam tambah dengan MC yang gila gila dan performance yang ohmaigod caiq hati tengok anuar zain menyanyi lagu soundtrack merong mahawangsa tu,dan tiba tiba hujung performance datang pulak dua makhluk filem hantu kak limah ni.
nasib baiklah i sempat tengok gambaq tu last friday at least kenal la jugak sapa la budak dua orang tu tiba tiba naik stage.
even dalam kuliah coursemate tak habis habis kita bako je,kita bako je, dan style melambai lambai tangan macam tu dah jadi ikutan semua orang bila lecturer tanya sapa nak buat test next week semua melambai lambai tangan macam tu. don't you see kuat sungguh influence hantu kak limah ni.
i suka performance siti untuk penutup tu,it's rare to see her dance tambah tambah menari nobody nobody tu.
i paling suka dress fasha sandha tu cantik gilaaaaaa boleh tak? dengan colour earth tone yang selalunya rare orang pakai untuk event. walaupon tak puas hati dia menang which i'm utterly surprised from where the hell did the votes come from when all the while semua orang benci dia?
lisa surihani memang of course sangat cantik no matter what she wore and one more lady that caught my attention was rita rudaini she look so prettyyyyy!

semangat jek hang tulis post pasal ABPBH tidakkah kau sedar malam ni ada test?

thanks for reading people.

i love the bottom part. sangat cantik and the colour is awesome bebeh. picture from beautifulnara.com

its true i can't live without you.

2011-04-03T10:49:00.009+08:00

what would you say when your best man and your bestfriend are just right with you and they look good together with the laughter and all and how does that atmosphere feel right there resemble all the cheers in the world.
amboi,kenapakah ayat begitu sastera?

yesterday was a blast. rasa sangat seronok when i have besties back in penang. terima kasih sebab arau banjir this dude find his way home and thank god i still have my boo around teman i mengedik bersama.
semester break coming soon and i'm waiting for girlfriends to come home,just how i need them desperately to go down memory lane like always.
life is bored in USM,okay now i admit it. even almost a year now i couldn't find anything that would cherish life here. i just feel life in USM is just merely knowledge based.
okay kenapa bebel lebih ni?
thanks guys for yesterday.

okay this is funny. PK was shouting all the way snapping this picture cause sepet seem to lose his attention tak tau bini ada belakang dok tengok tempat lain pulak! ni nak marah ni. *gaya cekak pinggang*

sepet muka annoying ish kenapa gedik sangat perempuan ni?

tak mau kawan sepet tadi jeling jeling tengok perempuan lain. duduk jaoh jaoh.

photographer dan kawan kite yang kuat bebel yaw. belanja popcorn ja terus semangat tangkap gambaq banyak banyak.

boleh tak nak jerit kuat kuat I SUKA GAMBAQ NI!!

ps: tajuk tak dak kena mengena i always find difficulties cari tajuk post and now i'm listening to two is better than one so you know why tajuk post macam romantik semacam ja?
thanks for reading people!

kenapa cantik sangat ni?

2011-04-01T13:38:00.002+08:00

its the end of this week and of today i'm proud i successfully bullshit my biochemistry paper just now so mari kita bergembira dengan wanita wanita cantik ini. fineeee,kenapa ayat bergembira dengan wanita cantik sounds so gay?

1. this lady please don't ever deny that she is BEAUTIFUL.SANGAT CANTIK RASA MACAM NAK CUBIT CUBIT. okay perlukah ada hiperbola macam tu? she's beautiful in and out don't you think? natural beauty i should say. kalau tengok dia tak pakai make up pon she's just stunningly pretty!!!!!!!!! kenapa perlu ada banyak tanda seru. fineeee,hang excited sorang sorang.

2. this lady walaupon dah macam outdated sikit she's still pretty like ever. just the smile that i always love. even in another decade when she all wrinkled she's gonna look as sweet as ever don't you think so?

3. this is another lady that i always adore her beauty. she's just drop dead gorgeous just don't mind how many bad gossip about her that keep on lingering on the news headline. masa dia berlakon cerita pisau cukur tu memang la ohmaigod sangat gedik okay you. something about her smile attracts me. yes. really. okay minta maaf ayat kite macam perempuan miang minat kat perempuan lain pulak.

i just feel woman with smile that almost make you melt and make you go blind when you walk langgaq sana sini when she just strike her stunningly smile and woman with dazzingly beautiful eyes are just drop dead gorgeous. don't you think so?

make your mom your best friend.

2011-03-29T07:21:00.002+08:00

di pagi pagi buta ni teringin pulak i nak ceramah buat teladan adik adik sekalian.
bukan senang nak tengok i survive lepas subuh ni kan.
so well,as you all see,i mean as far as see and as far as i concern now,kawan kawan i banyak yang tak respect parents diorang dah sekarang.
bukan nak cakap i baik sangat but that's the last bad thing i will do kalau i hati i dah sehitam hitam manusia sanggup buat macam tu kat parents sendiri.
i have cousin yang sangat tak respect parents dia,maki parents dia all the way tanpa segan silu. i mean, macam depan semua orang she could just burst out all the bad words. and yes she a SHE oh come on,tak sopan langsung.
dan betapa baiknya hati naluri mak tu she can still accept the thousand apologize from her daughter even kalau anak dia repeatedly buat hal. malu i nak mengaku cousin pon.
and recently i just found out she just got married. okay,sumpah rasa jeles yang membuak buak cousin i umor 18 dah kawen i i have few more years to go? and she could be having baby anywhen soon? fineeeee. okay,kenapa gatal sangat di sini?

and yet i have another friend who did what it takes just to get at least cash for her shopping spree and her mom just got retired and from where the hell you think mak dia nak cari duet untuk dia?
bayangkanlah mak dia a single mother who just retired tried everything she could just nak fulfill her daughter wish and what did she get in return?
just so you know,when the whole world turns their back to you,it's your mom who gonna accept you with open arms.
tell me what good have you done to your mom? bincangkan. don't give me back essays. bincangkan dalam hati saja.

kenapa i tulis entry ni? because i miss my mom. ohmaigod,tolong jangan buat rumah hang tu macam thousand miles away.

thanks for reading people. salam and good day.

this is the fact i never deny.

2011-03-28T18:48:00.003+08:00

i never deny that he's such a darling.

i am flirty.

2011-03-28T01:52:00.002+08:00

even once in a lifetime,i never considered myself flirty.
and if you think i am,what use i do in your life?

things you may not know about me.

2011-03-27T17:12:00.002+08:00

things you may not know about me.

1. this is the top list,mesti semua orang perasan kalau you guys rapat dengan i, i tak makan sauce. contohnya kalau makan burger ka,even KFC,i cuma makan secara bogel,sikit sos pon tak letak sebab i rasa macam sos menghilangkan rasa sebenar makanan tu.

2. i tak suka tempat crowded. even kalau pergi subaidah orang ramai nak mati,i rasa rimas and i would start sweating all the way. nak pergi pasar malam pon kena consider time paling tak ramai orang.

3. i tak suka driving. tapi hakikatnya i lah driver seluruh alam semua orang nak p mana semua cari i. kalau stuck dalam jam,masyaAllah tak tau nak gambarkan rasa tensionnya. tambah tambah drive dekat penang on friday evening or night,sabaq jelah dengan traffic jam yang sangat kritikal tu.

4. i have a severe allergic. i would be stratching all over up to down when i get sweaty. macam lawak jek bunyi kalau i cakap i'm allergic of sweat. cuba bayangkan kalau lepas joging,rasa macam nak guling2 atas tar jalan jek sebab memang gatal gila.

5. i tak tahan sejuk,even in lecture hall you see i would shivering like hell. i don't like any wet cold thing. cewah,tengok ayat i. bajet macam bella dalam twilight tak? hell yes,i'm twilight saga big fan you know. movie tak best kalau nak dibandingkan dengan buku dia boleh tak. okay fineeee,da silap topik.

6. i'm never fear of cockroaches or any crawling stuff. so kalau nak prank i agak agak nak tengok muka hysterical i jangan guna lipas,bugs or anything crawling sumpah tak jagi prank hang tu. cuba bagi ular ka,sumpah i ingat prank you sampai mati.

7. i'm never be good in drawing. seriously,NEVER. kalau dulu kerja seni i adik i yang buat because he's very good in drawing. kalau i memang lukis nampak la rupa sehodoh hodoh manusia.

okay tu saja for now. i'll add on kalau ingat. tadi bukan main macam macam list dalam kepala sekarang semua da auto-deleted. thanks for reading buddies. salam. ;P

if i were given a second chance,will i?

2011-03-23T00:56:00.003+08:00

salam people.
result SPM keluaq hari kannn? teringat dua tahun lepas masa i ambik result SPM menangis atas stage depan semua orang youuu,tak sangka hasil main main dalam kelas,kutok cikgu sana sini,gelak besaq dalam kelas with girlfriends,makan buah manggis dengan nazihah dalam kelas,main water gun dengan jia lyn dan fish,semua tu kenangan masa zaman sekolah yang paling tak boleh lupa,but somehow how mischievious we are back then,me and bestfriend got excellent result back then. i miss high school. like A LOT you see eventhough i sangat benci st.george girl's school masa mula mula masok,but you see how it developed to cherish my five years there and i'm proud to say that st.george girl's school is the best school after all. okayyy,kenapakah gaya macam buat essay i love my school ja?

anywayyy,did i tell you i pergi trip to gua tempurung few weeks back with coursemate and that was hell? did i tell you that how much i feel like crying in thereeee?
did i tell you how i discovered myself shivering in the darkness and how i discovered myself leaning tip toe-ing each stairs in thereee?
and ohhh,did i tell you i left my adidas sport shoes thereeee?

ni semua pictures sebelom masok. seee,muka berseri seri jek semua semangat nak mati. da keluaq dari gua tu semua muka penat dan muka,'shit,i sweat a pile and its hilarious'. or maybe i jek rasa macam tu. but somehow tak boleh nak bezakan peluh pon sebab we were all wet masa keluaq tu. you see,you've got to crawl in the river boleh tak. memang best tapi if you guys tanya i nak pergi lagi tak,maybe i shall think twice. or even with a great deal,just if they still have my baby adidas sport shoe i'm goingggg just for my shoe.

thanks for reading people. adios.

she's a senile.

2011-03-18T21:14:00.004+08:00

dah lama i tak update post. as though ada orang tertunggu tunggu post i kan? laptop tak sihat sihat lagi,tau tak betapa tensionnya hidup tanpa laptop boleh tak you all imagine?
i bullshit my calculus test just now and i'm not happy about it.
i bullshit all my test anyway tapi sungguh tak sedap hati dengan test kali ni.
eventhough my lecturer promised an extra marks for our attendance this monday which obviously i memang ponteng kuliah kalau hari isnin,rabu and jumaat.
seeeee? macam mana pemalas i've become now and i hate it.
how i always misplaced my things which so not me and i hate myself for that.
how i always running back and forth just because i forgot to bring something and hell yeah,i always hate myself for that.
and sometime i need people to remind me things,like what i should buy,whom i should meet and stuff like that,and tiqa was always be my reminder,i always hate the fact that i'm becoming senile a senior had to remind me things. i don't feel right.
how everyday i always misplaced my water tumbler that someone had to chase me each day to return my tumbler.
i hate myself for that.

kenapa i selalu lupa sekarang ni? pfft.

saja nak tempek gambaq gedik sendiri. at least i remember me smiling last week.

boring la you.

2011-03-01T13:03:00.000+08:00

Salam satu malaysia kepada semua. Pewittt,ada gaya rosmah first lady kita x?
Sebelum tu I cuma nak minta maaf kalau ada kesalahan tatabahasa mahupon ejaan dalam post ni sebab I guna phone sekarang sebab lappy I rosak I rasa stress nak mati yaw. So disebabkan handphone kecik cenonet sangat sampai juling juling mata so lazimnya akan ada kesalahan so minta maaf yaw.
I dah ada kat lecture hall untuk kuliah genetic pukul tiga like ohmaigodddd,what did you do so early in lecture hall mesti korang tertanya tanya. Okay,maybe tak sebab muka I memang muka nerd budak baik pergi kuliah awal and did you know I've been skipping classes since friday yaw. Tiba tiba rasa hebat sebab ponteng kuliah. HAHA. Gelak kejam di situ yaw shut up now.
Kuliah lagi 6 minggu before study week don't you know how happy am I? Okay obviously you don't know cause I'm such a pathetic woman waiting for sem break cause I really need a break. I need a vacay. Like desperately you know?
Hell yeah I akan membusykan diri lagi minggu ni dengan karnival and trekking ohmaigoddd,trekking is my new hobby,eh kenapa ohmaigod dari tadi gedik tau tak?

My life is so bored. Kan? I rasa macam dah lama tak gelak kuat kuat sampai orang takot. Imagine me gelak kuat kuat. Rasa takot tak?

Time please pass faster. :(

biarlah dia berbicara.

2011-02-16T17:58:00.009+08:00

hai. ni lah muka muka yang selalu jadi topik gosip hangat kat matrik dulu. ni jugaklah muka muka orang selalu pandang semacam macam muka muka ni buat dosa besaq nak mati. mereka orang orang hot kat matrik dulu except yang pendek sekali tu.(ohmaigoddddd,did i look short in this too?) so well,meet izdran the best basketball player,harez(ehem ehem) si buncit yang best rugby player,mutiara the top model figure like bestfriend,dan saya,oh what should i say about me? yes,the big laugh girl with kuih pau punya muka.

hai. meet this two awesome people.mereka ni lah muka muka i bergembira zaman sekolah dulu. mereka ni lah geng i main water gun dalam kelas dulu dan jugak geng bergosip dan geng duduk lepak bawah meja makan dalam kelas. yang cantik tu la my einstein girlfriend and she's now in new zealand oh can i cry now?? amoi tu bestfriend kite jugak,ni pon future educator macam einstein girlfriend kite jugak. kenapa hang sorang jek bukan einstein?! so meet my best friend on earth,nazihah syazwani and ong jia lyn oh i love you guys!

hai. ni pulak sharifah aina afzan dan kawannya. ahli geng the gediks masa kat marik dulu dan budak kecik ni ada taste lelaki hensem macam kite yaw. selalu suka laki yang sama yaw. yaw,kenapa hang gedik sangat mufy? budak kecik ni berdimple yaw,boleh tak nak jeles? budak kecik ni sama saiz dengan i yaw,dulu jelah. sekarang i tak boleh nak maintain sama berat dengan dia boleh tak nak jelas lagi?

hai people. meet this model like figure bestfriend. tau tak sekarang kami mempunyai topik gosip yang sama dan menyimpan dendam terhadap laki yang sama.tengok,i simpan dendam yaw. terima kasih buat lelaki anonymous yang buat hidup kami begitu berharga nak mati dan buat kami suka sangat laki tersebut ada dalam hidup kami oh please! ni girlfriend shopping yang paling best i tell you.oh mutiara,teringat dress semalam lagi nak p KL lagi please get that dress. ohmaigodddd,gedik lagi hang ni.

hai. yang ni kalau tak kenal jangan kawan dengan i dah la. hehe. ni lah sesepet sepet manusia dan sebuncit buncit manusia dan seperasan perasan manusia. ni lah gambaq kontroversi gila bajet artis lah konon dengan sunglass dan jacket ala ala faizal tahir. kena panas sikit wajib pakai sunglass nanti mata rosak i jugaklah yang dok tahan mata i yang silau ni bawa sunlight. so yea,meet my sexy man again.

see why i bukan einstein dan kawan kawan i einstein. buat assignment sambil tunggu ERL yaw. hehe. i lebiu ong jia lyn.

okay tu saja post i kali ni. thanks buat kawan kawan for yesterday. sekarang i dah ada penang sob sob dan mulalah i nak pening kepala dengan test segala bagai. i havenew resolution now tolong lah bagi menjadi wahai mufy. dear nazihah syazwani i miss youuuu please hug me nowwwwwww!

ps:kenapa blog title macam ayat p ramlee oh sila gelak.

woohoo!

2011-02-11T23:57:00.003+08:00

tiap tiap kali mula minggu baru i rasa macam excited terlebih sebab satu minggu lepas dah berlalu. mula nak counting berapa minggu lagi lecture week and teehee hooray i tak sabaq nak cuti. 8 more lecture weeks to go bebeh!
i' done with calculus test today. sumpah i tak ready langsung sebab PMS yang sangat menggangu i nak study dan kehadiran roommate buat i rasa awkward nak study bila ada orang dalam bilik. okay,jangan percaya cakap i. saja cari alasan sebab malas nak study.
so that's the deal. i dah ada roommate over one and a half semester i tak dak roommate and there's time when i realised that if i could stay a little patient i could be best roommate ever dengan my roammate kat matrik dulu. serious shit,the gediks tu mesti gelak baca i rindu roommate i dulu.
my life is no fun now. like seriously people,its choking me.
plus biochemistry is my new disaster apart from me whom couldn't even stay still with biochemistry book more than 10 minutes. disaster i tell you.
and next week was a hell week i have tests lining up,biochemistry test to be precise.
and plus i'm planning for a sweet escape to KL this weekend sending my einstein girlfriend off to new zealand. i envy you baby did i ever tell you?

please get rid of this no fun.

harez saleh,i miss you. :(

meet my sexy man. harez saleh,please don't kill me for uploading this picture. peace! ;)

its a start bebehhhh!

2011-02-07T07:24:00.008+08:00

i should have that i wrote this post this early. good morning world!!!! *dengan nada excited macam jumpa rick malambri ohmaigodddd kenapa hang hensem sangat?!
oh what the hell you girl.
hari ni kite cume nak suruh korang usha usha gambar kite bersame cousin tercinte bergedik sane sini.
kite dah lame sebenarnye nak berblog cume tak de idea nak start macam mane walaupun dalam kepale macam macam nak tulis.
so lai lai,tengok macam mane kite spent cuti kite.
cekidaud!

post gaye terbaru cousin kite umo empat tahun ajar.

muke lapar pelempang ni.

muke bajet comel ni. ke mau pelempang jugak?

dalam semak pon jadi keje yea kome?

konon nak buat gambar ala ala dslr tapi x sedar diri kite gune ixus jew. kite x mampu nak berdslr youu.

kenape kite tembam sangat???

tu saje gambar yang kite nak menunjuk. hari ni kite ada resolution baru yawww!;)

the good and the bad thing

2011-01-20T23:33:00.005+08:00

hello peopleeeeeeee!
its been a long time since my last post. i just couldn't get myself to picture out the right words to start my entry which i didn't attempted to get a good one on this one so that's why i used this lame thing hello peopleeeeee for a start.

i'm totally occupied this week but i couldn't get any slightest idea why the hell is this woman named mufy just couldn't get herself burning the midnight oil again just like the time in matric and why the hell this woman couldn't resist giving up on her baby sleep and why the hell this woman still have a big eye bag,really biggg eye bag even if she took enough sleep? okay,kenapa bebel panjang sangat?

so let me tell you this. this week make me feel like jumping off the cliff.
1. zits are popping up like volcanoes can you get that? THE BIGGG ONES.
2. i've spent too much and i didn't feel right.
3. sepet playing too much drama these days.
4. i feel dumb and i just couldn't get myself revising back.
5. sepet dropped my hello kitty handkerchief somewhere. MY HELLO KITTY HANDKERCHIEF I TELL YOU AND DON'T YOU FEEL I HAVE REASON TO FEEL MAD AND WHY THE HELL IS THIS THING CAPLOCK-ED ON ITS OWN?
6. my best friend is passing through her hard time and it affects me too.

but somehow i rasa happy tergedik gedik sebab,
1. i've met my dear darlings last week and that was awesomeeeee
2. I NAMPAK KHAIRUL FAHMI THE MALAYSIAN GOALIE DURING MATCH USM DENGAN KELANTAN AND OHMAIGODDDD,I WAS TEXTING EVERYONE THAT I SAW HIM EVENTHOUGH I JUST SAW THE BACKSIDE OF HIM AND ME AND BABES EXCITED GILAAA AS IF NAMPAK JOHNNY DEPP OHMAIGODDDDD! eh,apa hal hang gedik sangat ni?
3. i dapat hello kitty stuff from my besties for birthday gift awwww,terharuuu!

okay,tak dak apa nak merepek dah tutorial calculus menanti yuhuuu bai!

aida hernita i miss you i lebiuuu!

thanks sepet for fulfilling my wish to meet these awesome besties!

don't you think faizal tahir is hottttt?

2011-01-09T23:36:00.004+08:00

currently i tengah gelisah tak boleh duduk diam sebab i tak sempat tengok faizal tahir nyanyi lagu hanyut sebab tak boleh nak live streaming. hanya sempat tengok dia nyanyi lagu selamat malam which i went ohmaigod ohmaigod ohmaigod thousand times that it pissed my brother off.
okay,itu merupakan sebab tak munasabah untuk you guys pon gelisah macam i. cuba la kalau hang gelisah biochemistry is hell yeah,i tak paham. hip hip hooray i still tak paham lagi the first chapter even we almost finishing the second chapter. lagi sekali hip hip hooray guys.

i dah berjaya buat lagi satu cooking showdown with brother aka budak hitam. and this time sangat sangat menjadi ehem,terbangga sekejap.
masakan minggu ini ialah tadaaaaa,spageti bolognaise.
gambaq satu apa pon tak sempat ambik sebab i terumbang ambing sorang sorang kat dapoq.
next cooking showdown is castard caramel oh yummy!

i baru dapat text from sepet faizal tahir menang persembahan terbaik. i nak pergi lompat hip hip hooray ni. that man is so energetic i love youuu!

bai!

my first attempt yuna-ish tapi i rasa turn out jadi macam someone yang give up nak lilit shawl macam mana so lantak la macam mana pon.and why the hell mata i macam sepet semacam.and ohh its in the lift thanks to the light i look fairer hooray hooray.

semuaaa baru awak!

2011-01-02T22:14:00.008+08:00

i dah lama nak post new entry tapi taip padam,taip padam dan ditambah dengan kenyanyukan i,habislah segala apa yang i plan nak tulis.
first of all,i nak ucapkan terima kasih buat harimau malaya bagi i cuti free jumaat lepas tak dak kuliah dan boleh berguling atas katil tak payah bangun awal.
did i tell you i have classes at 8 most of the days? no,i didn't. so mai sini nak habaq i have classes at 8 most of the days. kalau tak pukul 8 pon pukul 9,macam mana dengan baby sleep i ni? ish,mampos lah dengan baby sleep hang tu.
i've been so moody these days tak tau kenapa.
and mom seem to pissed me off. okay,mana hilang resolution tahun baru hang tak mau bising kat mak dah?
i promised this will be the last one.
you know,i tak suka orang arah i. contohnya macam ni.
hang tengah drive. and there's someone sebelah bagitau what you should do. masa belajaq drive tu tak payah kira la sebab hang memang tengah belajaq.
so situasinya ialah dalam kesesakan lalu lintas. kereta banyak and hang tengah tension pastu ada orang sebelah yang bagitau bila kena brake bila kena bukak lampu,jangan dekat sangat dengan kereta depan even if its not,jangan buka radio sebab kena concentrate driving,jangan minum aiq masa memandu sebab kena concentrate,jangan jalan kalau lampu da kuning which i always did i admit and blah blah.
kadang kadang i rasa macam orang tengah ajaq i macam mana nak berak. pfft.
dan bila orang buat i jadi macam driver sumpah rasa nak terjun penang bridge. eh,tak. i tak berani terjun sebab i tak tau swim.
did i ever tell i hate driving? no,i didn't too.
so bila ada orang suroh i drive dari taiping balik jitra pastu balik penang,i was like #$%&*$#. okay,paham?

enough with the heavy.
di tahun baru yang umor i dah bertukaq jadi oh-so-sweet 20 unofficially,i cuma nak semua better this year. relationship with mom,which i'm proud to say i selalu berkepit dengan mak walaupun kecik kecik i suka brgadoh dengan mak sebab kecik kecik dia sayang adik i lebih. even i still have the thinking now but obviously,she loves me at another angle and perspective.
and of course,better dalam agama,study dan juga relationship with people around. insyaAllah.
maybe i should post another entry on my resolution later on. its a bit messed up here.

esok kuliah awal. i hate it did i tell you. yes,now i did tell. bai.

ni aksi tunjuk ketiak sexy. HAHA.

pose macam ni sebab nak nampak kurus. kurus ke?

perot buncit. cepat,buat buat tak nampak.

tudung baru beli petang tu malam dah pakai. mak enon sebelah tu tolong lilit. tapi masih tak dapat sembunyikan muka kuih pau i.

mari berkenny rogers dulu sebelom balik!

happy new year from the kuih pau. peace no war bebeh!

kadang kadang tak pa kannn?

2010-12-26T00:17:00.006+08:00

hari ni i nak jadi manusia self centered sikit.
tadaaa,presentingggg the kuih pau.

kuih pau buat muka baik.

kuih pau mencuba posisi dari tepi. woot woot.

kuih pau buat muka serius. oh,serius ka?

kuih pau mencari view dari laut.

kuih pau berlagak hot. sila gelak.

terpaksa jadi self centered sat tadi suroh adik hitam tangkap gambaq i sebab orang lain malu malu nak ambik gambaq.

ps : kenapa kuih pau? sila tanya sepet.

if we could claim the past time.

2010-12-24T00:09:00.006+08:00

i sepatotnya dah tidoq masa ni. i masih mengamalkan baby sleep instead of beauty sleep.
so i masih perlukan lapan jam tidoq yang berkualiti untuk hari yang berkualiti.
dan malangnya i tak boleh tidoq sekarang. habislah baby sleep i.
mulanya i ingat nak buat post nak conclude pasal 2010 dan new resolution tapi hati i kata,eh awal lagi untuk itu. sekarang pergi siap sedia untuk esok.
haa,macam tu lah hati i kata tau you.
sekarang dengarlah apa i nak merepek.

lima tahun yang lepas
i rasa tu lah zaman kejatuhan i. banyak sangat masalah di usia yang muda. pewit. ayat tak boleh blah.
tapi i sedaq lima tahun yang lepas jugaklah yang banyak ajaq i,kita kena bangun kalau tak nak orang pandang rendah. so that one day you can laugh back at them. gelak har har har macam hamzah

ni ja gambaq yang i ada empat tahun lepas.

empat tahun lepas
zaman kegemilangan i. i rasa masa tu memang hormon hormon tengah boost up,sudah pandai gatal gatal. dah pandai wey,aku suka hang. hang suka aku tak.. dah pandai cinta cinta dan bila pikir balik i rasa ish,bodohnya diri aku masa tu. dan empat tahun lepas jugak berlaku beberapa confession heart to heart. cewah.
dan empat tahun lepas jugaklah,i telah berkabung beberapa hari disebabkan result PMR i macam taik,walaupun bagi orang lain dah hebat tetapi i masih dengan diri i yang tak reti nak bersyukur. dan sekarang bila pikir balik,ish bodohnya hang dok tension sampai tak mau balik rumah sebab agama dapat B.
oh,i lupa nak bagitau. dalam empat tahun lepas i dah double. *wink*

tiga tahun lepas
i dah kehilangan seorang kawan baik yang berpindah ke MRSM. menangis i dalam kelas depan cikgu sebab tak sanggup berpisah dengan kawan baik. dan masa ni,i tak tau hormon apa pulak yang boost up i menjadi sangat sensitif. dalam kelas memang depa selalu berperang,walaupun sekolah perempuan yang sepatotnya ayu ayu saja,tapi bergadoh memang dasyat. dan i menangis tiap tiap kali depa gadoh.
dan bila pikir balik,kenapa eh aku menangis masa depa gadoh dulu?
i masih tak dapat jawapan.

ni masa ambik result SPM with girlfriends!

dua tahun lepas
final year di sekolah menengah macam hooray,i like!. dan masa ini tak dak hormon yang boost up cuma bond making terlalu banyak dan ada juga bond cleavage. i ingat lagi masa ni i bergadoh dengan bestfriend i sampai satu sekolah tau. even cikgu tuition yang selalu tengok kitaorang berkepit and was like what happen between you guys? tetapi bond making sangat menjadi jadi masa ni,i have fabulous girlfriends in between. dan classmates yang sangat best to the max,dan prom night yang ulala,i like dan jugak result SPM yang ulala,sangat tak sangka.

inilah the gediks i! ^-^

setahun yang lepas
bond making sangat aktif dan kuat sepanjang tahun itu. walaupun study macam hell,sangat susah. masa ni berkenalan dengan sepet walaupon dalam hati sangat rimas tengok rambut dia panjang walaupon semua orang macam ohmaigod,coolnya rambut dia.. masa ni kali pertama berjauhan dengan family dan kali pertama rasa homesick. dan juga kali pertama i naik train dari arau balik penang. apa yang paling i suka ialah kegedikan bersama the gediks. tetap di hati tau guys.

currently
i tengah merajok dengan sepet.

tu sajalah yang i nak merepek,bai.

its just more than words.

2010-12-22T12:22:00.002+08:00

i've been giving up on novels since matriculation.
not that i'm pretty much occupied with studies cuma dengan alasan eh,buku matric hang pon tak mampu nak baca ada hati nak baca novel.
bila dah masok U,masih lagi tak sempat nak sentuh novel novel walaupun dah ulang alik ke borders banyak kali and as i inhaled the smell of new pages of the novel i rasa macam eh,i miss reading.
dan kat U pulak memang banyak sangat masa free untuk membaca novel tapi terlalu banyak masa dihabiskan berfoya foya tak sempat jugak nak baca.
cuti sem ni i dah habiskan tiga novel and oh,i'm proud. just proud. and so proud. eh,perlu ka banyak proud proud ni? dasar perempuan suka brag. pfftt.
you know,when i read its more like you're watching movies. it feels like all the words had been put in motion as you scanned through the words. and how the vision of the character popped up in front of you just like how a cinema screen suddenly appears in front of you together with the casting.
tak sangka i boleh menangis lagi baca novel semalam after all i could remember last novel yang i menangis was ps i love you and that was way masa i muda muda dulu. cewah.
semalam i menangis lagi dengan the last song by nicholas sparks.
and adik hitam kata,aku ingat hang ni menangis sebab tak boleh shopping ja. WTH.

ps: i'm now hello kitty's hardcore fan. eh,tiba tiba ja.

this morning.

2010-12-17T21:00:00.002+08:00

tadi pagi i pergi market.
and damn. i was zooming this girl and then only i realised that this girl knocked me down twelve years ago and give me the scar on my forehead. (cewah,scar on forehead gaya macam ada scar macam harry potter.)

and ohmaigod,dia pakai tudung labuh.

so motifnya,bila hang nak pakai tudung labuh mufy?
i wish. i wish. i wish.

hai awak!

2010-12-13T21:48:00.002+08:00

i came out with the idea of this nonsense i'm typing now when i was all lost when i read HOUSE RULES.
that's so typical me,i get drowned in my own world as i read so even when mom was beside me and waking me up,eh eh jom cepat makan nasi,i would just stay dumdfounded. so i came across what this little jacob hunt dislikes and i figured i wanted to write about my dislikes too.

DISLIKE NUMBER ONE
i guess i've mentioned it earlier in my previous post. tak tau i berapa tahun lepas but i ada mention yang i sangat sangat sangat tak suka orang suka melenggang. and i have this feeling of smacking their butt when i came across these people. seriously,i want to smack their butt so hardly just like how i managed to smack bro's butt and feel like i'm a great champion. HAHA. i tak la penyabaq sangat tapi bila berdepan dengan mak lenggang ni,pfft,hilang sabaq i youuu! orang yang jalan lambat,orang yang drive kurang dari speed limit,orang yang makan lambat,orang yang buat kerja lambat terhegeh hegeh,you stressed me up dude!

DISLIKE NUMBER TWO
you know,there are people who just born perfect that they kept on looking for people's flaw. and how they always brag about themselves,what they have gotten and what us those with imperfection never have gotten. i am not in the crowd of luxuries and i never wanted to. i prefer modent life instead. but it really pissed me off when those with luxury always brag about what God had lent them,and what even worst is they always have this behavior of discrimination. how they discriminate those whom are not blessed with penny like them. how uncivilised they are.

DISLIKE NUMBER THREE
sometimes it pissed me off when it come to this situation. (in crowd of people)
megan fox : hey,what's on your forehead?
betty : what?
megan fox : there,on your forehead?
betty : do i have to tell you that its a zit when it's what that you knew.
pfft. i know how flawless you are and is it appropriate to question what's on my forehead even if you knew it? when it comes to this,i just wished that she have zit on her forehead too so that she could feel down when i shout in crowd,'HEY,WHAT'S ON YOUR FOREHEAD?!

DISLIKE NUMBER FOUR
i not an early riser,you guys knew that well. but ehem ehem,i'm proud that i woke up earlyyy these days. sebab practical work dekat mukahead dah adjust my sleeping route. so sekali lagi,ehem ehem saya dah bangun awal. so you guys could figure out what my dislike number four is kan? DO NOT DISTURB MY SLEEP. DO NOT. i still sleep like a bay,8 hours of sleeping gave me an all day activeness. a minute interupted,you guys gonna see my hurricane. but somehow,it's my bro's favourite thing to do to piss me off!

DISLIKE NUMBER FIVE
i always organised my work well. i wish it never be any flaw in my work. not a single liquid paper scratch or even a single flip on my paper,i'll copy back the whole thing. but somehow,it happen to have chocolate stain and curry stain on my paper when people borrowed my work. and that fucking pissed me off. hang pinjam barang aku,hang p tenyeh kari,p tenyeh coklat hang bagi balik kat aku dengan muka tak bersalah. ish ish ish,hang memang peberet aku.

muka head research crew are best to the max!

2010-12-08T19:46:00.009+08:00

almost a week there was worth the sweat dropped.
the hardship and cooperation was hell yeah,amazing.
its good to know that there person that you hardly recognized during lectures are the one that rhyme their laughter with yours.
its good to know that talking with them will led to endless talk and hours of non stop mumbles.
its good to know that the cooperation that we held always led us to something and hell yeah,we finished all the researches earliest!
with the wind blows and the sea waves that sounded like our all day melody,the cold shivering water that drop down from the hills,the background melody of the rainforest make us feel like we're one way closer to heaven.
being a penangites,i'm yet amazed with those beauty,with the sea waves and the wind with the speed that almost flew us all.
okay,that was way exaggerating. i sorang saja yang berat tak boleh dilayangkan angin. pfft.
lecturers and staffs were just dead fabulous.
i just love the bond that we created,just so strong that we enjoyed every second beyond the tiredness.
i'm just loving it to the max!
muka head practicals crew are the best!
and babes,you guys make me laughed till i cramped my stomach almost everyday!
i lebiuuuu! ;)

kalau dah bulat senyum macam mana pon bulat jugak.

its just breath taking don't you agree?

best teammate ever!

mukahead research crew!

big laugh gang bebeh!

after bbq!

taking water samples and puan hasni dok geleng geleng kepala budak budak ni sat sat stop ambik gambaq,kerja tak habis lagi. haha.

and this time mr nazri pulak geleng geleng kepala and burst out laughing when we turned up forming lines like this.

cooking showdown.

2010-11-25T20:22:00.003+08:00

sekarang ni tak tau apa hormon yang tengah membuas i dah rajin masak.
mesti ada jek yang bising tu,'eh eleh,dah tua bangka baru nak bising dia dah rajin masak.' eh,suka hati i lah.
minggu lepas buat cooking showdown dengan tata.
dia potong potong,i masak. at the end,dia makan banyak tinggal tiga keping daging saja untuk i.
can you see world is soo unfair? okay,i tak kisah sebab kalau dia kurus i pulak yang tergugat.
tiga keping daging pon cukop lah. ceh,dok bajet macam perot hang kecik sangat cukop lah tiga keping daging tu hah?
kalau ekin baca mesti dia tertanya tanya mana jin lapaq yang i bela dalam perot ni? heh.
so semalam another cooking showdown dengan sepet.
theme kitaorang nak masak macam kat hammer bay.
ikan bakaq nan macam hammer bay,sotong tepung dan udang tepung nak macam hammer bay,tomyam nak macam hammer bay,sup pon nak macam hammer bay.
he did the shopping,i did the cooking. okay,tak lah semua kan,dia siang ikan i masak. malu i sepet i reti siang ikan i tak reti.
sotong tepung tu nak jadi macam hammer p la petik daun kari. konon konon lepas ni,eh eh marvelous gila sotong tepung kita kalah lah hammer bay.
tapi dah bertekak sat,i cakap campoq sekali masa goreng sepet kata lepas goreng baru campoq tak jadi lah mcam hammer bay. sebab ikot cakap dia.
and plus,lepas siap goreng baru teringat hammer bay buboh serbuk kari kitaorang lupa buboh. shit.
nak buat ikan bakaq pulak sepet p beli ikan kembong nak bakaq ala ala hammer.
sumpah tak jadi lah kan? lepas siang masok fridge.
tak jadi ikan bakaq hammer.
nak masak sup pulak cari halia tak jumpa. tuan rumah pon tak tau mana halia dia.
okay,tak jadi jugak sup hammer bay.
tomyam pon tak jadi i lupa kenapa.
last last buat jek resepi paling best dan marvellous,ayam black pepper resepi i sendiri. cewah,gaya macam chef wan ada resepi sendiri tau. haha.
so cooking showdown kitaorang sempat buat tu jek.
tambah tambah masa masak terlari lari ulang alik dapor dengan hall tengok alisa. okay,i jek yang dok ulang alik.
and i have no idea kenapa i tengok jugak gambaq tu walaupon dalam hati punya menyumpah boring gila gambaq tu.
pukul 3 baru lunch sebab nak masak pon bertekak punya lama.

next cooking showdown resepi baked macaroni i pulak okay sepet!

nanti i upload gambaq. hilang sabaq tunggu dia loading. pfft.

what's yours?

2010-11-23T21:21:00.003+08:00

kalau tanya apa cita cita i dulu,i jawab i nak jadi doktor.
its so typical,kalau tanya budak budak sekarang pon tu jek yang depa tau jawab.
or kalau paling advanced pon depa nanti jawab nak jadi polis,or cikgu.
masa i dah besaq sikit,i mula minat dengan designing.
more to interior designing.
walaupon i tak sedaq diri yang i memang tak pandai lukis.
kerja seni semua upah adik hitam i buat,i jeles sebab dia pandai lukis.
ingat lagi masa i ambik seni masa form 3,kena lukis potret
i upah adik i buat potret daniel radcliffe (sebab masa tu macam tak civilised sangat kenal daniel redcliffe jek. hehe.)
okay,melalut pulak i.
i pon kena puji sampai kembang segala anggota yang dah kembang sebab potret yang adik hitam i lukis.
memang i fail bab drawing.
ingat lagi masa i darjah satu,i menangis kat sekolah sebab cikgu suroh lukis i tak reti lukis.
ingat lagi muka cikgu tu,meremang bulu roma,mak ai garang sunggoh.
pernah jugak i bercita cita nak jadi penulis novel.
nak jadi ala ala JK Rowling ka,ala ala stephanie meyer ka,ala ala cecelia ahern ka.
heh,gila tak sedaq diri perempuan ni.
semalam i bukak balik buku buku lama i. ada jugak la i compose something suka suka.
tapi sekarang dah lama tak membaca nak tercirit i nak compose semua tu balik.
i'm just not flair in writing too.
so lupakan hasrat hang nak jadi writer.
sekarang dah besaq panjang hang tanya cita cita apa,i shall stay dumb even by now.
i just don't know.
maybe should let time decide.

kenapa tiba tiba i tulis pasal ni? sebab i rasa nak meroyan duduk rumah tak boleh keluaq kereta tak dak. ish.

forgetful as always.

2010-11-22T23:30:00.004+08:00

i tak tau kenapa lately ni i macam nyanyuk.
terpaksa minta tolong cousin i remindkan i.
dan tiap tiap hari mesti pusing satu rumah cari benda.
sekarang cousin i dah tak dak kat rumah terpaksa jugak pusing satu rumah cari barang i.
ohmaigod,tensionnya jadi nyanyuk ni.
dan tambah tambah adik hitam saya pon tak dak kat rumah,tak dak orang nak buli i dan i pon tak boleh buli adik hitam i tolong i cari barang,pelok i sampai i tidoq,tolong picit kepala,tolong garu i.
sapa sanggup jadi adik i? gentleman gitu.

musim musim cuti ni satu benda jek yang i cari.
nak cari kedai makan best best p pekena kaw kaw punya.
dah jadi hobi pulak makan sampai tak boleh jalan.
badan tak naik lagi boleh lah rileks,nanti orang dah tegoq "eh eh mufy,tembam hang naa" memang wajib sit up dan skipping tiap tiap masa. okay,melampau youuu.

sekarang i tension bila orang suka mengatur hidup i.
kalau drive,ada orang kat tepi dok bising,sumpah rasa tension macam nak drive terjun penang bridge.
bila nak keluaq,ada orang yang akan ikot jadi bodyguard.
bila ada plan lain terpaksa i batalkan plan i sebab kena ikot plan orang.
bila i masak,ada jugak orang dok bising kat tepi.
ohmaigod,i'm 19? just let me decide please mom?

i need to shop. desperately.

and oh,harry potter was awesomeeeeeee!

and btw,good luck to all juniors untuk spm esok. spm kacang,trust me. hehe.

bai.

i love you cousin!

how to react?

2010-11-16T18:54:00.002+08:00

tinggal lagi satu paper saja lagi.
paper yang lepas tak tau i macam mana nak react.
susah kah? senang kah? serius tak tau macam mana nak react.
penat i merenung muka dr uyub,masih lagi lupa apa benda yang i nak tulis tadi.
dan kenapa lepas exam nak masok toilet kena berator macam berator nak bayaq masa end year sale?
terpaksa aku kepit sepanjang jalan nak balik rumah. shit.

cuti semester nak cuti cuti malaysia saja.
eh,sekarang ada nama baru cuti cuti satu malaysia.
pergi mana mana jumpa satu malaysia. satu malaysia tang mana i tak tau.

baru teringat muka head field work pulak lepas exam ni. oh.shit.

banyak shit post ni. berteraboq di sana sini.

okay,bai.

i want this please?

2010-11-13T17:34:00.001+08:00

rasanya hari ni saya tak boleh nak tidoq lena lagi walaupon mr.organic chemistry dah tak ganggu hidup saya lagi.
bukan sebab saya rindukan dia. big no no okay?
sesungguhnya dari kecik lagi mak saya dah latih saya untuk sayangkan wangi-wangian.
eh eh,kecik lagi ke hang umoq 15 tu?
okay okay,masa saya tak kecik sangat tak besaq sangat saya dan mak saya share satu obsess yang sama.
so hari ni kami sama sama tak boleh tidoq sebab semalam terbau perfume terbaru guess.

eh eh,tengok perfume saja okay, eh,mana lari mata hang? sini tengok perfume saja. maaaf saya mengoda iman para jejaka. hehe.

okay,so konklusinya saya selalu tak tidoq lena pikir benda yang tak patot.
tak kisah lahhh,i want this please?

and oh,birthday party i mungkin tak jadi sebab ramai tak boleh datang. dissapointed tahap dewa. (ayat cikgu bio saya)

bai.

okay,sekarang baru boleh pergi pasar malam.

ini post khas. ;)

2010-11-13T17:00:00.005+08:00

post ni khas kepada hilal zainuddin. betoi ka nama bapak hang? ;)

1) adakah anda rasa anda hot?
saya taklah hot,tapi apa yang saya tau saya lagi hot dari orang yang tag saya. dan orang yang tag saya tak boleh menang dengan ketinggian saya. HAHA. *gelak kejam*

2)upload wallpaper yang anda guna sekarang.
apa kes hang nak tengok wall paper aku?

3) cerita pasal wallpaper tersebut
ish,sibuk jek hang nak tau eh? wallpaper ni saya ambik masa di laketown. tak rasa comel ke korang? dah la putih putih,favorite colour i tau youuu.

4) Bila kali terakhir makan pizza?
minta maaf saya ada short term memory. tak boleh recall balik abad bila saya makan pizza.

5) Lagu paling latest anda dengar
lagu kiss me from sixpence none the richer. mula mula dengaq lagu ni masa lacey brown menyanyi lagu ni. dan disebabkan dia nyanyi lagu ni saya pon teradmire lacey brown. tengok lah rambut dia. bayangkan rambut i macam dia. HAHA. eh,hang dah silap topik.

6) Apa yang anda buat selain menyelesaikan tag ini?
saya baru bangun tidoq. HAHA.

7) Dipanggil nama apa selain nama sendiri, anda?
muffin. jangan panggil nama penoh saya sudah okay.

8) Tag lagi 8 orang
hilal,aku skip yang ni tau!

9)siapakah orang no. 1 kepada anda?
NI PON!

10) katakan sesuatu kepada orang no.5
NI PON!

11)no. 3 ada hubungan dengan sapa?
NI PON!

12) bagaimana pula dengan no.4?
NI PON!

13) pesanan kepada orang no.6
NI PON!

14) kata2 cinta untuk orang no. 2.
NI PON!

15)adakah no.7 dan no.8 mempunyai persamaan?
NI PON!

16)berikan 5 perkara yang anda tahu tentang orang yang mengetag anda
1. dia sama tinggi dengan saya.
2. dia kalah main daytona dengan saya. HAHA.
3. dia ni owner khaleel. you know,khaleel nasi kandaq tepi desasiswa RST tu. HAHA.
4. dia main rugby. i like! eh,ada kena mengena ka?
5. dia kaki library. ;DD

18)perasaan anda semasa buat tag ini.
tak ikhlas. haha.

19)Adakah anda tahu y si Razman itu sengal??
razman nama teddy saya. hee.

20)gay or lesbian?
bisex. HAHAHA.

yay,dah habis. boleh pergi pasar malam!

i benci you sangat tau.

2010-11-11T22:19:00.003+08:00

you tau tak you ni selalu susahkan i.
i ingat i boleh lari dari you,tapi dari sekolah sampai dah masok U,you ikot i ja.
kenapa selalu tak puas hati dengan i?
kalau masa sekolah dulu boleh la i suka you sikit sikit.
tapi lama lama,i dah tak paham you.
i semakin bencikan you.
selalu i mengamok sebab you,sebab you ni sangat sangat tak understanding.
rasa macam nak tumbuk tumbuk dinding geram bila jumpa you.
bukan i tak try nak paham you,tapi susah sangat nak paham you.
i rasa you selalu tipu i. apa yang you bagitau i,i pon tak dak idea macam mana you tau semua tu.
kalau dulu masa sekolah boleh la i mesra mesra dengan you sebab i cintakan you,tapi sekarang jangan harap.
cuma benci yang sangat mendalam.
i harap you just get out of my life lepas ni. i harap tak jumpa you lagi.
esok tolong jangan susahkan i. dan malam ni jangan buat i tak boleh tidoq pikirkan macam mana nak berdepan dengan you esok.
ohmaigod. ORGANIC CHEMISTRY,WHY CAN'T I LOVE YOU?

i'm cooler than you.

2010-11-09T00:36:00.002+08:00

sesungguhnya saya ni seorang yang cepat,kalot pon ada jugak lah.
so kalau pergi shopping malls paling meluat kalau orang suka melenggang tak pikir orang belakang nak cepat ke apa.
lagi satu kalau yang bawak troli pastu tertonggek dok pilih barang troli dia dok block orang lain dia buat tak ambik berat langsung memang rasa macam ish,gerammnya.
kalau drive pulak,lagi lagi kalau drive kat kedah,tau la kedah tu banyak sawah padi,angin sepoi sepoi bahasa tapi kalau speed limit tu 70 hang bawak 40,hang tak tengok ka berderet dah kereta kat belakang dok tunggu hang ambik angin? tambah tambah kalau double line,adoyai sangat tension okay.

dan saya jugak cepat kalau buat kerja. tak teror pon,cuma cepat.
so kalau makan tu paham paham jelah,macam ada orang lain tolong makan kat saya. eh,saya baca doa makan okay.
bila makan dengan orang yang makan nasi sebiji sebiji,makan ayam secubit secubit,minum air setitik setitik,ohmaigod,tolong paham perasan i.

kalau saya beli barang,bila berkenan saya tak beli on the spot.
balik tidoq dulu kalau mimpi barang tu memang wajib kena beli.
kadang kadang kalau pergi shopping dengan sesetengah kawan,dua tiga kali dalam hari yang berlainan pergi tengok barang tu tak beli beli jugak padahal hati tu memang dah nak sangat dan bajet memang dah cukop.
tak tau lah saya ni tak teliti beli barang ataupon depa yang suka melengah.

lagi satu lagi bengang kalau saya kena tunggu orang.
saya selalu punctual sebab tak mau orang rasa bengang kalau kena tunggu saya.
tapi saya yang bengang bila kena tunggu orang lama lama.
eh,ayat dah pusing pusing ni.

dan lagi tension bila abah saya merupakan orang seperti dinyatakan dia atas.

bai.

ps: saya bukan tengah bengang. saya coooool. ;)))

pss: tajuk tak dak kena mengena.

tak rasa pathetic ka?

2010-11-07T23:41:00.003+08:00

first time i tulis blog ni,semua disebabkan i merupakan stalker seorang kawan.
dia ada blog,i pon nak ada blog.
kalau baca balik post yang lepas,masa zaman kurang matang tudung sekolah selekeh lagi i rasa macam,'e,bodohnya i!'
typical isn't it?
i suka baca blog orang,more like stalking i should say.
but somehow its inspiring actually.
dan pada satu ketika i pernah berangan nak jadi blogger terkenal. ala ala hanis zalikha you see. (okay,tiga kali dah i mention nama dia kat sini.)
even now,masih lagi berangan mat jenin macam tu.
okay i know memang i berangan macam mat jenin dalam hati you guys dok kata ish,blog macam taik ada hati pulak.
mungkin nanti dah kawen ada anak baru banyak benda menarik nak tulis.
ataupon i patot follow orang banyak banyak baru orang nak follow i kot?
heran i setengah tu blog tak best pon,rambling ja tapi follower ramai,komen tak payah cakap memang dah menjangkau angka tiga.
tapi i bila sign in ada komen yang kena moderated happy macam baru menang tiket naik cruise.
kalau you guys rasa ish patheticnya ayat ni. just shut up,i pon rasa macam tu. HAHA.

okay lah,i nak sambung study dulu. tunggu lagi ayat ayat pathetic next post okay.

ps: mula mula aku hang,pastu dan saya awak,sekarang dah i you pulak. ish,i pon tak paham kenapa i macam ni.

esok dah mulaaa.

2010-11-07T16:06:00.005+08:00

dah dua kali saya sign in,sign out blog ni sebab otak dah tak boleh pikir nak tulis apa selain pikir factorial design dan latin square dan segala design design.
tau apa tu? tu lah yang bakal mengconfusekan saya paper hari selasa ni.
ohmaigod. tolong jangan bagi saya confuse lagi.

kalau minggu ni habis dengan selamat,saya dah cukop lega sebab paper minggu depan tak berat sangat kecuali paper biodiversity,animalia yang memeningkan dan saya dah reka macam macam binatang dan order dan class yang baru sebab tak tau jawab test yang lepas.
mesti dr mansor geleng geleng kepala tengok paper anak malek daud jawab ni.
tolong dr mansor,jangan bagitau abah saya.
nanti i belanja coklat okay? e,gaya gedik nak mengorat pensyarah. mampus bini dia kejaq nanti.

kimia saya dah tak tau nak cakap apa.
mechanism sangat banyak,SANGAT BANYAK PAHAM?
dan of coarse saya akan jadi ahli kimia reka reaction sendiri untuk paper jumaat ni.
oh,did i tell you nama organoborane tu sangat cute? plus if you say it dengan nada sexy. macam ni ya,organo-boraaaane. sexy kan?
HAHA. WTH.

saya on diet hari ni. okay,jangan percaya.
sebab budak ni dah habiskan lunch hari ni selalunya makanan yang beli kat cafe tak pernah habis sebab tak sedap dan tak tau kenapa hari ni habis licin. HABIS LICIN okay guys?
lagi lagi bertambah tension sebab jeans yang longgaq yang kena pakai dengan belt dah tak longgaq tak payah pakai belt dah.
okay,boleh terjun penang bridge sekarang.

picture ni sangat adorable. comelnya comel saya. abaikan baju merah tu,tak adorable hitam sangat.

ni masa deepavali eve. cantik jugak camera bukan dslr saya snap picture ni.

hello world.

2010-11-03T13:02:00.002+08:00

study week kat sini memang sangat berbeza dengan study week di matrik dulu.
kalau dulu study week rioh rendah bagaikan rumah terbuka tapi kat sini study week sunyi benar,macam KL di hari raya.
eh,apa ni hari raya rumah terbuka ni?(teringat makanan best best masa hari raya)
so tu saja yang saya nak bagitau.
mungkin depa dah ready untuk final balik rumah bergembira dan saya saja yang semangat study week baru nak pulun semua.
tapi malangnya tak jugak pulun sebeb cuaca sangat menggoda.
katil saya memang sangat irresistable macam twisties.
eh,sebut makanan lagi?
sesungguhnya,saya sangat lapaq sekarang.
makanan cafe sangat tak mengikuti selera saya. terpaksa beli makanan instant dan makan roti dan nutella sahaja untuk tahan perot tapi tak berdaya jin dalam perot meronta ronta nak makan nasi.
alahai jin,kenapa hang suka sangat menyusahkan saya turun ke cafe untuk beli makanan kat hang dan panjat semula tangga yang bagaikan batu caves untuk balik semula ke bilik?
kenapalah study week ni dah 3 hari berturut turut saya bangun pukul 12?
okay,kantoi suka tidoq macam badak.

move on bebeh.

esok nak melawat comel comel saya di kulim. mungkin dapat gelak ketawa dengan depa boleh boost up energy nak study. ada kena mengena ka?

okay,study sekarang mufy.

oh,kenapa saya asyik ingat seoul garden lagi? rugi tak dapat makan spageti hari tu.

sudah mufy,cepat study.

eh,baju di dorothy perkins dan kitschen sekali lagi buat saya tak tidur lena teringat mereka.

ohmaigod,tolong study sekarang mufy.

semalam saya mimpi saya fight dengan lady gaga dan harry potter dan lady gaga bunuh dumbledore! HAHA.

you're wasting another minute. cepat study!

oh,kenapa saya jeleskan dia? shit.

STOP TYPING. MOVE ON. STUDY NOW MUFY!

okay,bai.

i love you.

2010-11-02T11:55:00.003+08:00

i remembered the first time when met when you are all eyes on me.
its bizarre though,those look wasn't just a look.
its more like a hope.
and though it make me stuttered to have you locked in motion into my eyes.
you how much i hate you when you stare deep into my eyes,u get me motionless.
i tried to stray cause love wasn't my option at the moment.
i tried not to get all excited to bumped into you each day.
i tried to ignore those look with hope.
but there's a tiny corner inside that wouldn't let me hurt you.
i gave a little pathway in. even without slightest hope that i would love you back.
i get along with the rhythm,being with you as long as you need me.
but somehow i just get drowned with the rhytym. i love you then. and now.
sorry that you knocked out yesterday because of me.
now you have a big scar on you to remind you of me.
its a vulnerable part of me.
i'm sorry. i love you.

birthday i dah dekat youuu.

2010-11-01T09:46:00.002+08:00

baca blog post terbaru hanis zalikha. (okay,kali kedua saya sebut nama hanis zalikha. saya memang stalker dia)
untungnya gadis cantik tu dapat birthday wish dan video macam tu.
birthday saya pon dah dekat. kenapa buat buat tak paham lagi?
cepat lah prepare video dan email terharu untuk saya.
nanti saya bagi email okay! HAHA.

hari ni dah start study weeek.
tapi saya nak pergi tengok wayang dulu,balik kita gomoi buku naa! ;)

ps: saya excited nak jumpa ramli din? tau sapa ramli din? pengetua penang free school. adik saya buat hal saya kena pergi dengaq ceramah ramli din. orang cakap kalau kata nice hair kat dia automatik mood dia okay. shall try later.

bai bai bebeh.

jom diet!

2010-10-24T22:16:00.002+08:00

kalau hanis zalikha mengamalkan fish diet musim musim exam ni,saya mengamalkan minum glucose. (nak jugak tiru hanis zalikha buat post diet diet ni)
semua influence pensyarah comel saya di matrik dulu yang mengalakkan minum glucose masa exam ni.
sebab dia kata glucose ni bagus sebab,oh saya lupa kenapa.
tapi memang bagus lah kan.
saya dah beli glucose. *nada bangga sikit*
tapi glucose saya beli perisa oren,tak dak calcium lah.
dr mansor kata saya tak cukop kalsium. sekarang tengah hunting mencari makanan yang banyak kalsium. tak mau jadi nenek si bongkok dua awal sangat.
so lepas ni sayangku nazihah syazwani,jangan lah minta tips diet kat i okay.
i akan kembali tembam macam dulu dulu. tak payah jeles jeles dah.
lepas i exam kita diet sama sama tau,slim river sama sama okay!

suka lah saya-awak ni,macam comel. HAHA.

okay lah,nak sambung study lecture notes berbau oligo koko.

ps : kawan kawan di uitm sekalian,good luck untuk final hampa esok naa. ;)

kenapa selalu hilang graviti ni?

2010-10-24T14:39:00.002+08:00

kalau dulu kat matrik kalau aiq tumpah jek mesti depa tengok saya.
sebab saya la penyumbang banjir dalam kuliah tu.
kalau dulu minum aiq,mesti meleleh leleh,okay salahkan tumbler murah sebab tak berkualiti minum pon boleh tumpah.
kalau bagi tumpah aiq kat restoren salahkan meja tak stabil sebab tu aiq tumpah.
minggu lepas tumpahkan nescafe atas lecture notes.
call abah suroh printkan lecture notes baru sebab lecture notes dah tak cantik bau nescafe.
kelmarin tumpahkan oligo koko atas lecture note. (saya minum oligo koko sudah,milo tak layan dah)
malangnya tak dak soft copy terpaksalah study lecture note tu sambil menghidu oligo koko.
minggu minggu lepas tumpahkan aiq kat cafe saujana masa discuss wus,nasib baik tak kena laptop mahal taufik.
sekarang dah boleh terima hakikat dan tak salahkan meja tak stabil ataupun tumbler tak kualiti sebab memang saya ni selalu hilang graviti bila dengan aiq.
lepas ni jangan bagi tumpah aiq dah okay.

okay sudah,pergi study lecture notes yang berbau oligo koko tu. esok ada test biodiversity.

bai.

sekian.

satisfaction.

2010-10-22T23:39:00.006+08:00

maaf baby bloggy saya dah lama tak melayan awak.
terlalu sibuk minggu ni dan disebabkan emosi yang kurang stabil terpaksa saya melupakanmu buat seketika.
ohmaigod. dah mula buat ayat taik.
weehee. mood kembali stabil.
lepas ni tak dak lagi post emo,muka panjang mulot muncung sebab tak dapat handbag idaman hati sebab dah dapat hari ni.
abaikan post yang lepas. susah susah jek saya nangis depan MNG tu handbag tu dah tak dak. HAHA.

selesai dah segala bagai presentation minggu ni.
bangga rasanya forum group saya mendapat pujian hebat. (oh,hebat ka?)
but anyway,thanks kepada teammate yang sangat supportive dan sporting.
farah,ika,nene. lebiu lahhh!
dan tidak lupa kepada teammate wus,tahniah sebab dah buat penilai confused tergaru garu kepala sebab hampa dok keluaq semua pelat penang(walaupun bertungkus lumus nak cakap baku),penilai hok dok kelate nu,dok pehe demo kecek gapo.
nina,aini,taufik,zul. lebiu jugak lahhh!
banyak pulak lebiu lebiu ni yea.

minggu depan isnin,selasa,rabu,khamis,jumaat sangat occupied dengan test sebelum final.
final dah dekat masih tak sedaq diri lagi.
tahniah jugak saya ucapkan kepada mufy.
test KOT tadi macam taik. semua macam taik,what else should i say?

i get good bargain with low price. wow wow,hebat. thanks jugak kepada sepet sudi temankan saya shopping.
bila duet scholar mau masok? nak shopping deepavali pulak. HAHA.

oh,saya dah cerita jumpa mike hari tu? mike sangat hensem okay. sangat gentlemen dan macho walaupon lemak meleret.
pongo pygmaeus sangat comel.
thanks kepada prof masshor,idola saya sekarang.

saya dah sopan da pulak hari ni. saya-awak okay. ;)

bai.

hari presentation wus.

forum bersama the best.

kenapa sepet saya macam comel pulak? HAHA.

gediknya perempuan tu.

inilah antara mereka yang jatoh hati dengan mike tetapi mike malu bergambar dengan kami. tak pa,tak pa.

weehee. saya suka suka. ;))

promise is just like an air of words.

2010-10-19T01:33:00.002+08:00

it sounds cliche when we talk about past and present.
on how we put so much regrets and face the present with a long face never been able to put a fullstop on the past that we have left.
if just past could be undo and play again,i won't have to pause and cry in present.
if just dreams could be fulfilled with just murmurs of words and puppy eyes that could put you in command.
why am i so depressed now?
sebab handbag impian hati dah habis stok.

bai.

post kecewa.

2010-10-11T01:32:00.003+08:00

sekarang da 11 oktober.
tak sempat nak buat post untuk 10.10.10.
dr sheikh da kahwin.
mesti ramai yang meraung raung tengok dia akad nikah dan wedding dia yang sangat grand.
dan aku juga termasuklah antara peminat dr sheikh yang meraung tengok dia akad nikah.
rasa macam nak menangis. eh eh,sangat over okay youu?
sekurang kurangnya sempat meraung kat alyaa semalam.
alyaa! hero kita da kahwin!
mana lagi nak cari laki brilliant macam dia?
okay okay,sudah sudah la tu.

friday night was a blast.
tak sangka still standing sampai pukul 8 pagi.
oh,abaikan aku tertidoq dalam wayang tengok midnight movie.
dapat white roses dari sepet,rasa macam nak tidoq guling guling pelok bunga saja.
sayang,pink roses pulak? HAHA.
i lebiu lah sayang!

exam lagi berapa hari lagi. boleh dikira dengan jari jari i yang da dimanicure lagi. okay,gedik nak bagitau kuku da cantik.

okay bebeh,bai bai bai!

sayangku yang paling ku sayang. selamat hari lahir ke19! i love you all years of friendship!

sepet buncit! bunga lagi?

tulis post ni dengan lancar. tak gagap lagi. ;)

2010-10-05T23:08:00.002+08:00

nak merepek apa pulak hari ni?
hari ni termissed place handphone aku,tertinggal kat masjid.
dan ternyata masih lagi ada orang yang jujur dah pulangkan handphone aku.
ayat 'ternyata' kat atas tu macam sangat skema. mentang mentang baru habis buat karangan bm. bukan buat sendiri hanya menggoogle mak cik google.
okay,apa dok merepek.

status facebook aku yang menyaran diri aku untuk berjimat banyak pulak orang like.
nampak sangat memang aku kena berjimat dan orang orang kat luaq sana dah tau aku bukan jenis yang berjimat.
okay,sekali lagi ayat 'menyaran' macam sangat skema.
tak habis lagi ke buat karangan mufy?

merepek dengan budak budak tu tak habis habis.
ada ka patot nak rebus kepala prof chan buat char koay teow pulak.
astaghfirullah,bila la aku nak stop mengutuk pensyarah aku ni.
taubat lah mufy. tak berkat ilmu hang.
i lebiu lah prof chan!

bai!

ps: rindunya baby aku kat rumah tu. hari khamis ni aku balik ambik hang. kita bermesra jumaat ni.

pps: dah ada mata baru walaupon aku bukan rabun. sapa sapa yang rabun mesti rasa nak pelempang ada budak tak rabun gatai pakai lens.

undefined.

2010-10-04T17:42:00.003+08:00

here comes another week.
mari kita buat sedikit kesimpulan tentang minggu lepas.
eh eh,gediknya ayat macam nak buat karangan.

test biostatistics macam tak dak harapan.
tak sempat nak habiskan soalan dua,dan memang tak tau nak buat pon.
dan kuliah biostatistic hari tu aku perasan prof chan macam happy sebab kitaorang paham.
or at least,konon konon paham.

kadang kadang aku sedikit outdated pasal movie movie melayu ni.
weekend lepas tengok lah lagenda budak setan sebab ramai suroh aku tengok sebab depa tengok nangis nangis. sedih la sangat sampai menangis kan?
sepet pon menangis,dasyat tu.
sekali aku tengok,tengah tunggu part yang sedih tu,tak sabaq nak menangis macam depa,prepare semua tisu,tup tup dah habis movie.
ohmaigod,bila nak mengis ni?
kenapa tak menangis lagi ni? why why?
sama ada aiq mata tak sempat proses lagi,atau adrenocorticotrophic hormone dah habis,atau memang tak dak perasaan.
i choose the last option.

and oh,magika sangat best.
lepas ekin meronta ronta ajak tengok gambaq tu,dengan hati yang berat,duduk la tengok. (walaupun niat dalam hati nak tidoq jek dalam wayang tu)
tapi sangat berbaloi kalau tengok. betul betul berbaloi macam kamdar tau. eh eh,kamdar ke yang betul betul berbaloi tu?
5 star untuk magika okay!

sekarang nak tulis blog pon nak tercirit pikiaq nak tulis apa.
macam tiba tiba stuttered you see.
like the way a dude lost his words as he strike the best time to confess.
ohmaigod,what's up dengan confession ni?

final lagi sebulan. muka head lagi 2 bulan. bukit merah lagi dua minggu. langkawi kita bila pulak wahai kawan kawan?

okay. bai.

ting tong!

2010-09-28T22:52:00.003+08:00

sekarang da jumpa lagi satu roadside burger yang sangat best selain adam burger.
sekarang dah ada mamu burger! (cakap dengan gaya excited macam first crush kenyit mata kat hang.)

da lama tak tulis blog,jari yang dah di-manicure(dan buat sepet sangat jeles tengok jari jari i shining shining gitu) macam da jadi haywire,tak tau nak blog pasal apa.
padahal pagi tadi da siap susun ayat nak merepek apa.
ish,kenapa ayat burok sangat ni?

okay,mari mulakan semula. (macam ni pon tak best. macam nak ajak budak budak belajaq ABC. wth.)

macam ni la,mai sini cek nak habaq.
lately sangat busy dengan macam macam.
tak sempat makan,tak cukop tidoq.
okay,aku tipu. sangat cukop makan dan sangat cukop tidoq.
kalu rupa nak macam bloated whale kata tak sempat makan lagi memang wajib bagi pelempang.

okay lah,kuku i yang shining shining da kurang shining shining da. nanti i update lagi naa. e,kenapa gedik semacam ayat ni?

bai.

usahawan shawl dan geng merepek bergosip malam khamis.

sal yang comel. sapa boleh celen mata dia? sangat cantik okay.

si dahan kayu bersama daun yang segar. HAHA. serius lawak gambaq ni. oh,ni la tauke khaleel okay you all.

ekin muka syok. malam malam dapat nur. HAHA.

post ni menyakitkan hati pembaca,aku tau.

2010-09-19T15:55:00.004+08:00

kenapa la sekarang ni macam malas nak update blog?
walaupun sebenarnya cinta dan kasih sangat mendalam terhadap blog ni.
e,kenapa ayat macam taik ni?

hari ni da start balik aku melentok masa kuliah ecology,nak terkencing masa kuliah biodiversity,tidoq ternganga masa kuliah kimia,dan ohhh,berangan masa kuliah biostatistics.
khamis ni mula pulak bergosip dan cuci cuci mata masa kelas wus. HAHA.

and next.
okay,next.
and then.
lepas tu...

ah,sudah la. aku da lupa nak tulis apa.

bai.

ps: aku berazam tak mau balik rumah minggu ni. kononnya.

muka tension pikiaq biostatistics. ada muka tension ka?

tak tau mimpi apa minah ni pergi jogging. kurus kan? kurus kan? oh kurusnya.

oh baby zue!

Mami tanjong da balik.

2010-09-14T01:47:00.001+08:00

Sampai sudah aku kat penang.
Setelah berjaye meronte ronte depan abah,ajak balik awal,dapat juge aku balik penang malam ni juge.
Esok ade misi habiskan duet raye. Tak sangke aku banyak juge duet raye tahun ni.
Assignment kau tak habis lagi. Jangan kau lupe die pulak okay?
Good night world.

Amacam? Terror kan mami tanjong cakap KL?

Tok sah hang dok buat loklaq mufy,hang cakap KL macam bangla nak cakap melayu.

Selamat malam dunia!

Haa,lagi satu post.

2010-09-12T22:15:00.001+08:00

Okay,jumpa lagi dengan minah ni hari ni.
Tak tau awat dia tergedik sangat tulis dua post hari ni.
Nampak sangat minah ni boring nak mati. Sanggup online guna phone macam berak tak puas tulis post lagi hari ni.
Cant time flies much more faster?
Ohmaigod,boring gila tau tak?
Sehari ni meng-usha blog orang saja. Tiba tiba mendapat inspiration pulak. (Like the way tiba tiba dapat cahaya at the end of the tunnel. Ceh.)
Okay okay,meng-usha blog hanis zalikha hari ni.
Sapa tak kenal dia bunuh diri sekarang.
She's pretty though. Tiba tiba dalam pala otak berangan nak jadi macam dia.
Mesti ada jek yang dok guling guling gelak dengaq confession ni. aku pon geli taik telinga baca apa yang aku tulis. HAHA.
Kaki berparut ada hati dok berangan.
Tampaq minah ni bagi dia sedaq diri sikit.

Berita pasal datok susilawati,sosilawati,apa tak tau nama dia,memang buat semua makcik makcik aku dok bergosip kat dapoq sambil memasak.
Kejam sungguh manusia ni.
Kalau da sakit hati macam macam boleh buat.
Minta maaf macam mana pon nothing could change.

Cepat la,nak balik penang!

Bila besaq besaq ni,raya jadi semakin boring.

2010-09-12T12:30:00.000+08:00

Raya ketiga sudah hari ni. (Eh eh,guna ayat pasif pulak. Woa,bm da maju. Da tau ayat pasif ayat aktif. Haha)
Okay okay,hari ni da raya ketiga.
Masih lagi kat kedah. Ohmaigod,boring gila kat sini tau tak? Penat aku dok nganga jek kat sini tak tau nak buat apa. Wth la wey.
Sangat membuang masa okay?
Cepatkanlah masa,nak balik penang! Kawan kawan tengah menunggu nak mengedik.
Dan date dengan assignment hang jangan dok buat lupa pulak.
Lappy pulak buat hal,tau tau saja aku tengah kaya saja nak habiskan duet aku. kcuf.

Tolong terbangkan aku balik penang. Jangan lisau,talak belat punya ini aci,lu angkat talak sengit lu mia bahu lo. (Okay,merepek dah minah ni.)

Makan cucur ketam kuala perlis semalam. Teringat masa ramai ramai rogol cucur ketam masa kat matrik dulu.

Bai!

Happy Eid buddies!

2010-09-10T01:08:00.001+08:00

Okay,esok dah raya. Literally,hari ni la kan?
So,mai sini dengaq minah buat those typical post hari raya.
Happy Eid to all. Maaf zahir dan batin.
Aku bukan manusia sempurna,mungkin ada jugak aku sakitkan hati orang.
And if so,bukan niat aku sengaja sakitkan hati orang.
You know,our misbehave sometime creates wrath that others held on us. And its burning each day.
Minta maaf banyak banyak for my misbehave.
Okay,sudah sudah.
Dia dok buat jejak kasih pulak.
Enjoy hari raya tahun ni guys.

Bai!

Ps: blogging pakai phone rasa macam berak tak puas. Ceh.

new way to go online.

2010-09-07T11:56:00.003+08:00

woa,i have a new way to go online now.
pergi mati la streamyx. sakit hati jek aku tunggu hang. cirit tak pernah habis.
sekarang nak online kena curi curi wifi KD sri pinang.
kalau lalu depan rumah aku,hang nampak aku pegang laptop dok depan rumah sambil dok adjust adjust signal,haaa,dia dok curi wifi la tu.

Okay,aku da lupa nak tulis apa. Ohmaigod,nyanyuk apa minah ni.

Esok balik kedah. Da lama tak mengusik budak budak tu.

Raya tour berderet. Makcik makcik tersayang,can't wait nak bergedik lagi.

Bai!

i see why now.

2010-09-05T16:55:00.002+08:00

mungkin ni satu advantage study dekat rumah.
bila gadoh dengan mak boleh lari balik desa.
sehari ni sakit kepala,pening kepala,nak muntah.
macam nak mati sakitnya.

tuhan da hantar seorang untuk hilangkan semua.
tak sabaq nak jumpa you!
cepat siap mufy. melantak kat hammer lagi!

Can't you see this idiot?

2010-09-04T22:33:00.000+08:00

Sungguh tak dak mood lately.
Semua benda tak kena.
Macam nak lari rumah. Tension dok rumah.
Macam nak lari balik desa tapi apa aku nak buat kat sana,semua tengah happy happy kat rumah masing masing.
Aku perlukan someone.
God,send someone here. Cherish back this idiot.

nak dengaq cerita hindustan?

2010-09-02T22:08:00.003+08:00

lama sudah tak tulis isu aku menangis,aku sakit hati,aku dengaq lagu your call sambil menangis,pergi kuliah mata bengkak.
hari ni mai sini cek nak habaq mai cerita mata bengkak pergi kuliah.
tapi alter sikit cerita,hari ni mata bengkak balik kuliah.
lepas kelas menangis dalam kereta.
konon konon nak buat cerita hindustan sikit,sat ada laki mai ketuk tingkap kereta bagi tisu.
pastu sambil drive dengaq lagu i love the way you lie dan menangis lagi lagi.
macam cerita hindustan kan kan?
kalau ada gunung ganang,boleh guling guling pakai sari sambil menangis.
baru nampak ke-hindustan-an.

okay,mufy. nanti sambung lagi dengan cerita hindustan. esok hang ada test.

bai!

just keep running.

2010-09-01T14:08:00.002+08:00

hari ni da hari rabu.
esok hari khamis,satu nightmare bagi aku.
i hate thursday. oh wednesday,can you just hold on?
sebab yang aku benci sangat khamis,sebab pagi pagi buta kena pergi kelas bahasa melayu.
oh come on,hang pergi kelas belajaq kata nama am,kata nama khas,pastu semua orang semangat belajaq hang dok menguap nganga macam buaya?
cintailah khamis mufidah. (ohmaigod,did i just mention my full name?)

jumaat pulak ada test kimia.
sampai sekarang aku masih rasa kimia banyak menipu aku.
boleh tak hang habaq mai sat,chair conformation,segala bagai rotation,S and R,lagu mana hampa tau?

something is missing in life now,and i'm catching it to put it back on my life track.

oh btw,sepet da tua. mari gelak kat dia. HAHA.
sayang,happy 19th. nanti kita celebrate okay!

shall i say its getting fun now?

2010-08-23T13:06:00.005+08:00

akhirnya aku rasa aku da ada sedikit perasaan cinta terhadap biostatistic.
terima kasih buat formula formulamu yang akhirnya buat aku caiq.
macam mana aku caiq dengaq ayat ayat cinta.
e,gelinya ayat.

hari ni da 13 ramadan,kot.
baju raya tak beli lagi. (dia dok kira baju raya jek,bukan kira ramadan da nak habis. taik betul.)
aku rasa nanti kena guling guling depan abah,pujok pujok sikit suroh beli baju raya.
baju kitschen tu da dapat. mari gelek gelek sikit.
alahai,rasa puas sangat dapat pelok pelok baju tu macam puas bila dalam minum aiq sampai kembung masa berbuka. (okay,tak dak kaitan langsung.)
mak masak sedap sedap bulan puasa ni. tension pulak aku nak pilih nak makan apa dulu.
kalau makan nasi tomato dulu,nanti kenyang tak boleh makan bihun tomyam.
kalau makan bihun tomyam dulu,nanti adik hirup tomyam tinggal sikit jek kat aku. mana boleh!
ish ish,tension tension.
i hate options.

life went so well. it makes my heart beats even more faster waiting for the next day!

tak sabaq nak pergi KL soon. and sarawak for fieldwork!

tauke tauke nasi kandaq tu,nasmeer dengan khaleel,tak tau la bila nak bukak puasa dengan aku. huh!

haa,ni ada gambaq lagi. streamyx rumah dok cirit tak habis lagi. macam taik. kat library sendut lagi

those time are valuable.

2010-08-21T15:48:00.004+08:00

teringat lagi masa kali pertama aku kenal dia.
tak pernah langsung rasa nak berkenalan dengan dia.
tapi bila da lama kenal,mungkin first impression aku kat dia salah.
mula mula tengok muka macam buaya darat(macam lecturer ecology kata,buaya terrestial sounds more polite),tak sangka pulak dia akan setia sampai sekarang.
mungkin tak banyak pengalaman bersama.
bersama belajaq kat matrik dulu,balik penang sama sama naik train,selalu merepek sama sama,selalu nyanyi malam malam.
mungkin setahun lebih belum cukop untuk aku kenal dia.
tapi mungkin dia da kenal aku yang sebenarnya.
mungkin sekarang baru dia tau aku bukan perempuan yang tenang hati bila kita tengok macam dia cakap,tapi perempuan yang sangat demanding dan membebankan.
kalau aku boleh ubah,aku da ubah.

sorry for everything.

ingat tak you menyanyi kat i bila i tak boleh tidoq sampai i tertidoq? i miss it.

besarnya masalah aku.

2010-08-18T13:53:00.004+08:00

aku masih lagi menghadapi masalah macam dulu.
masalah yang aku kira agak besaq bagi aku.
masalah nak pilih baju apa nak pakai pergi kuliah.
oh god,can't you see the point?
nak pikiaq nak pakai baju apa rasa macam dok pikiaq macam mana nak solve trigo.
okay okay,aku ja yang dok buat terok.
tembak baru tau.

prof nurul macam menakotkan. get ready nanti pukul 6.

i'm having emotion imbalance now. jangan cari pasal,nanti dapat jelingan maut.

bai.

eh eh,lupa pulak. ni gambaq gedik kat library hari ni.

post tak dak motif.

2010-08-17T12:50:00.004+08:00

da hampir seminggu da puasa,berapa kali da hang pergi tarawih mufy?
ada la dalam dua tiga kali,boleh la tu. kan kan?
puasa kali ni tak banyak beza sangat dengan puasa yang selalu aku hadapi.
tapi memang sangat berbeza dengan puasa tahun lepas.
tahun lepas satu satunya puasa aku tanpa family sebab jaoh di perantauan. (you know,jaoh berbatu batu okay.)
tapi aku masih lagi rindu suasana puasa tahun lepas.
bersama kawan kawan berbuka,dengan karipap bertimbun timbun,dengan makanan yang macam nak buat kenduri,dengan macam macam perangai kawan kawan aku,dan paling tak boleh lupa,bulan bulan puasa sempat lagi melucah,merepek.
lepas bukak puasa gelak macam orang gila setelah dapat lebih banyak tenaga nak keluaqkan gelak tawa yang buat orang takot ni.
mencuci mata orang balik tarawih sambil lari lari pakai kain pelekat. HAHA.
semangat nak pergi tarawih awal awal ramadan saja,akhir akhir ramadan,lepas berbuka tidoq macam badak. (oh,aku la tu.)
rindunya kat hampa semua.
just so things could be like before.

aku masih belom jatoh cinta dengan biostatistic.
kenapa keras sangat hatimu?
kelas pukul 2 nanti jumpa aku kat dreamland. kita main barbie sama sama okay!

nafsu shopping aku memang tak boleh tahan lagi.
memang bukan sebab setan yang buat aku banyak membazir tapi aku yang menjadi setan diriku.
kenapa la bila aku kering hampa nak buat sale sampai aku termimpi mimpi hampa ha?
kenapa bila aku p tengok hampa hampa dok panggil panggil aku suroh beli?
kenapa hampa cun sangat ha?
tau tak betapa sakit hati aku tak boleh dapatkan hampa lagi?
kenapa? kenapa?

oh nasmeer,oh khaleel,subaidah tanya bila mau buka puasa ikan bakaq?

aku di library sekarang. streamyx rumah macam taik.

ohmaigod,lagi satu post boring tak dak motif.

i miss you guys so much.

lamanya tak mengedik snap picture. nah,ambik hang. current picture di library hamzah sendut.

its good to know that there's still fun around.

2010-08-14T13:44:00.003+08:00

aku tak tau kenapa puasa ni tak macam puasa dulu.
kalau dulu pergi bazar,semua jek aku borong.
tapi kalau sekarang pergi bazar,cuma beli air amra kegemaran aku saja.
perot hang da kecik ka?
bajet tak makan banyak,nanti berat naik kat blog ni jugak hang bising.

sekarang aku banyak habiskan masa kat rumah.
kalau kat rumah tu paham paham saja la kan. banyak habiskan masa.
quiz organic dengan biodiversity macam taik.
minggu depan quiz biostatistic pulak. musuh ketat aku ni.
tak tau la macam mana nak jawab.
aku masih tak paham dengan biostatistic ni. whats's the point yang dia nak aku paham?
bahasa melayu lagi buat aku pening kepala.
wth. kena buat karangan 500 words,ada ujian lisan bagai?
ohmaigod.

but somehow,best bila belajaq biodiversity.
baru aku tau 1 gram taik aku ada 1 billion e.coli.

selamat berpuasa buddies.

2010-08-11T02:14:00.003+08:00

oleh sebab mata masih lagi terbeliak tak mau tutup tutup,mai sini dengaq aku bercerita.
cewah,gaya macam nak cerita bedtime story kat anak hang pulak.
sekarang da satu ramadan.
aku berazam nak beramal sikit tahun ni.
setelah dosa bertimbun timbun(astaghfirullah),mari ramai ramai kita beramal.
ramadan lepas aku memang sangat jahil.(astaghfirullah)
masa kuliah tidoq macam badak cacat,masa berbuka tak ingat dunia,lepas berbuka tidoq tak ingat dunia lagi. (astaghfirullah)
oh mufy,insaf la. bila nak tunaikan hasrat nak pakai tudung labuh? HAHA.

malam ni tersesat melepak makan nasi goreng USA dengan ikin. ops,terlepas sudah solat tarawih. masjid jamek gelugoq,esok jumpa aku!

selamat berpuasa buddies. semoga ramadan lebih bermakna. salam.

mentang mentang setan semua kena tambat,sopan pulak post ni. HAHA.

tolong beri aku tajuk.

2010-08-09T23:50:00.003+08:00

sekarang ni kalau tak balik lunch kat rumah mesti lunch kat subaidah.
akhirnya aku jadi orang penang sejati,telan jugak nasi kandaq yang tak pernah aku makan sejak 19 tahun kat penang.
mufy da jadi anak mami sejati.
lepas ni boleh pakai baju boria,p menari boria dengan persatuan anak anak penang usm.
mai p mai p mai,mai ke pulau pinang.
tapi subaidah yang telah disubsidi memang sangat murah.
syok la hang hilal,makan roti nan hari hari.
dan tentunya tak lama lagi,aku akan membulat macam dulu kat matrik.
tak lama lagi berat naik 55kilo lagi.
lepas ni kalau mufy tu dok bising kat sini kata dia gemok hampa tutup telinga. tau tau?

tubelawak visit blog ni. rasa sangat teruja macam nak menari salsa bila blogger terkenal usha usha blog ni. okay,baik jangan menari. gempa bumi nanti.

da cuba pakai tudung syria. ala,tudung yang orang orang dok pakai sekarang ni. dan sesungguhnya aku tak sesuai dengan tudung tu. nampak macam kuih pau terlebih tepung penaik.

kelas 5 jam esok. exercise pungkoq siap siap sebelum aku buat cubaan menari salsa lagi masa kuliah nanti.

ramadan,selamat kembali. aku berazam nak beramal bulan puasa ni. insyaallah.

morning world.

2010-08-09T08:01:00.002+08:00

woa,laju pulak bukak blogger pagi ni.
ni buat aku lagi sayang usm secure ni.
bila aku not in the mood nak blog la hang semangat dok loading kat aku.
kerja biostatistic tak siap lagi paham?
hang buat aku sesat pulak pagi pagi ni berblogging.

kerja biostatistic tak siap lagi.
mr verra,hensem la u. i love you lah! can i submit tomorrow?
gedik punya perempuan.

argh. mengantoknya.

excuse me for my drowsiness.

good morning world. bai!

tolong la,aku nanak!

2010-08-08T16:01:00.002+08:00

sale macam orang gila kat queensbay.
tapi aku cuma setakat nganga tengok baju yang aku nak.
sumpah hati sangat sakit.
terdiam sebentar bila terpaksa give up on that clothes.
hanya boleh raba raba,tapi tak boleh dapatkan.
tinggalkan nichii dan kitschen dengan hati hampa.
malam ni mesti mimpi depa.
kenapalah hang dilahirkan dengan nafsu shopping yang kuat?
argh. i want those!

mufy,sihatlah kembali. jangan sakit lagi. kerja menimbun sedang menanti.

oh mufy,tak kan la mcvalue lunch dua set tak cukup lagi? kenapa perot hang makin besaq?

oh oh mufy,tak sedaq ka hang assignment kimia hang tak siap lagi? test biodiversity jumaat ni? ingat tak? ingat tak?

oh oh oh mufy,move on baby. get some life.

oh sepet,boleh tak nak request baju nichii dengan baju kitschen tu untuk birthday present i? HAHA.

ini post taik.

2010-08-06T12:40:00.002+08:00

aku tak tau la berapa kilometre aku jalan hari tu.
bayangkanlah. dari tapak ekspo sampai bilik.
okay,hampa tak tau la jaoh mana.
mai sini nak habaq,jaoh gila kot!
rasa macam nak tercirit jalan. (jangan dok bayang aku tercirit tengah jalan.)

sekarang kerja da nak habis.
selepas aku cari all the courage nak tidoq kat desa selama dua malam untuk habiskan semua kerja.
kononnya dua malam nak tidoq desa tapi semalam,'mak,boring la. mai ambik.'
pulanglah mufy sorang ni ke rumah. dan sampai sekarang satu kerja apa pon tak siap.
tahniah mufy.

tak sangka aku usm secure sangat laju.
wow wow. syok saja dok layan facebook sambil kepala dok pening pikiaq kenapa boiling point toluene higher than benzene tapi melting point lower?
oh,can't you see the point.
jodoh aku dengan kimia hingga ke akhir hayat.
terlebih banyak chemistry gitu.
masih lagi kena susahkan kepala otak pikiaq reaction reaction semua.
hang bagi proton,aku ambik proton. hang miskin electron aku kaya electron. pastu apa jadi?
terpaksa la guna otak yang da berkarat,recall balik cik pau dok merepek apa masa kat matrik dulu.
baru sekarang nak hargai cik pau. dulu dah la masok kelas lambat. da masok kelas hang bising pulak. dengan makanan kiri kanan dok buat kenduri dalam kelas.
sabaq jelah dengan manusia macam di atas ni.

argh. kenapa post ni macam taik?

ps: usm secure tak boleh buka blogger. oh kenapa? kcuf.

pimpin siswa.

2010-08-03T20:38:00.003+08:00

camping kali ni bukan camping yang buat aku nangis,menyesal tak sudah macam camping kat matrik dulu.
sumpah camping kali ni best gila.
tak kisah la kena berguling dalam lumpur,bangun pukul 2 pagi masok hutan(memang tak nampak pape,aku raba jek apa depan aku,rasanya laki depan aku. HAHA),masak sendiri(memang susah masak tanpa dapur gas. penat nak hidupkan api tu. tapi thanks,aku masak dapat pujian. sudah sudah,dia da perasan) HAHA.
ice breaking sangat best,game pon best.
at least,somehow i see reasons kenapa diorang buat aktiviti macam tu.
bukan cam kat matrik dulu,tah apa apa punya aktiviti.
penat gelak saja sepanjang camping ni.
aku tak kisah kalau diorang nak lempaq aku p kem lagi.
tak kisah la aku tak terurus macam mana pon,aku busuk macam mana pon.
kem palas sangat best!