for a thousand years.

Things are so complicated at first,to be in love with someone you barely know after a massive heartbroken by someone you truely know by heart. My first core paper starts this Tuesday and to tell you the truth I am nowhere ready. With all the problems coming rushing flooding my brain torturing my every nerve cell which one to deal with was not easy. I have problems at home,not literally me but we had problem with my dad and what can I say more,I just don't want to talk about him. How stressful it was to stay home,and last night I had this terrible headache that i feel my head is just exploding in no time and suddenly everything turned dark and i woke up the next morning with the non stop dizziness. Maybe its just the time of the month or I'm just so fucked up stressed that i wish I could run to mama's house,I know i have welcoming open arms there. I know that when I feel like crying they are always preparing shoulders to cry on. Went out with boyfie yesterday,and i shall ticked yesterday as one of the best evening with him. I know we go through a lot to get closer as we are now,to suit each other like a puzzle. I never deny he really took care of me,I know i have nothing to worry about,and he's really the man whom never make me stop laughing,who never ever get tired of teasing me. I wanted to go back to mama's house. I want to eat like no tomorrow with kak Linda,watching Korean shows with kak cik even I have any slightest idea was that a she or a he singing there cause i think all Koreans had the almost resemblance that I will always mistakenly think a he is a she. You got that don't you? I miss to lay down with mama and talked. I miss hanging around with boyfie and Rafael,and their brotherhood bonding. How i wish to run away from my family chaos. Ya Allah I know you took away the piece of him already and replaced with a massive family problems now. I won't whine no more but just don't make mummy hurt so much,its ripping my heart out seeing mummy cries.

Bacteriology paper on Tuesday. Enough to make me shiver the whole day.

Assalamualaikum people good night.