time is our only problem don't you realise?

sometimes i put everything aligned well to make life looked perfectly simple and easy. and to wake up with reality that life isn't that perfect and easy is just a total depression. and to rise during the day with a promises and to shut down the day without the promise been fulfilled is another depression. and to pretend you are happy eventhough you know well the chaos that you have put aside for the sake of letting an entry of shine and happiness is yet doesn't work well. and to learn the fact that the person you once loved and who once love you had a beautiful life at present and in future without you and without a single bit of memory spare for you are just very very depressing. you know how karma always goes,what goes around comes around. but the thing is,it is the karma for the happiness i felt before or the karma for the upcoming happiness? damn this is one bloody feeling that i always hated. -_-

i never be good in making decision,yes?

12 days ahead,i'm a blessed undefined emotion 20 years old girl. no,20 years old ladyhhh.